I need a vacation .....NOW!!

 

 

Today was a rough day for me...

Ok I am not going to moan and bitch about how once again I wasn't able to sleep in..Hey I'm over it ...Forget it...I have accepted the fact that I may never be able to sleep in..Sigh.. OHHH WELLL.

Anyway today I was determined to get my laundry taken care of. I had SOOOOO much clothes that needed to be washed.. Its my fault  though... I have kind of become lazy on my days off and I let my laundry pile up like 3 weeks worth... SOO today was the day, no matter that it is Sunday and everyone and their mama was going to be doing laundry today... I was going to wait it out even if it took 2 hrs just to get a machine....But luckily when I got there there were exactly 4 washers empty ..EXACTLY what I needed... I guess I am loved..LOL

So 2 1/2 hrs and 20.00 dollars later I am done with the laundry and I am so proud of myself(BIG KOOLAID SMILE).

I hang up the wet stuff that I dont put in the dryer and I make some quick pasta for the kiddies to eat....WELLL you know my day cannot end without any drama going down..So here it is.

My son D decides that he is going to climb the stairs to the top bunk with a bowl of pasta in one hand... All of sudden he comes running to me MOM I dropped my food..I'm like NO you didnt ...He's Like Yes Mom I did.....Other times I might have let it slide BUT he knows better than to climb up to the top bunk with food in his hand not only that he KNOWS they arent supposed to be eating in the bedrooms..

SOOO I am pissed and I spank him(yes I do spank my children when they really do something that they already know is wrong)

I dont even want to walk in the room I can only imagine what I am going to see..But my imagination couldnt prepare me for what I actually saw...Therewas pasta everywhere, sauce everywhere!! They have rugs in their rooms so I get even more frustrated thinking how the hell am I going to get it out of the rug??

SO I change sheets, quilts and pillowcases, I throw a bunch of Pine-Sol on the rug and I start scrubbing the floor with the mop.. I managed to get the rug looking a lil decent. All the while I am ranting and raving about how he knows better and about why it was that I spanked him and just because he did get spanked doesnt mean that I love him any  less.( he tends to think that I favor my other 2 which is absurd I LOVE ALL MY CHILDREN EQUALLY)

In fact sometimes I tend to be a a lil more lenient when it comes to him because of everything else that he is dealing with. I noticed that he was taking that for granted.

I am very passive with my children and I know that that's not good but I hate spanking them...I will sit there and repeat myself over and over until I am blue in the face I will count to 3 and then start all over again just so that I dont have to spank them but they dont listen...they would continue to do it... I explained to all my children that I dont like to punish or spank them it breaks my heart to do it and after I do it I am practically in tears but sometimes they leave me no other choice.. I will not have wild children that control me instead of me being the parent. I will not walk down the street embarrassed because my children are cursing me out or disrespecting me... Believe me I have seen it before 5 yr olds cussing their mothers out or hitting them mothers NO NO NOT ME! All I ask of my children is 3 things... Go to school and do your best 2. Respect their father and me, as well as their elders 3.look after one another and love one another..

I dont push them to do anything else....The only time they have to help me clean up is on weekends , other than that I will do everything else and if I ask for help once in while I expect them to do it without hesitating.

They can drive me crazy at times and those are the days when I feel like I would give anything to have a lil break..but then when I am away from them all I do is think about them and worry if they are ok. Right now I feel terrible inside that I had to give him a spanking....after I spanked him I gave him a hug and I told him that I am not hugging him because he didnt deserve it but I am hugging him because no matter what I love him!

DONT GET THE WRONG IDEA I DO NOT ABUSE MY CHILDREN NOR DO I SPANK THEM EVERYDAY  FOR ANY LITTLE REASON!

Enough of that.. I have an UPDATE with my Landlady situation.

Can you believe that this lady has been calling me off the hook everyday since I told her that I wouldnt be able to do the favor for her friend... I have not answered the phone because I do not want to hear about how much I have disappointed her as if I were a lil girl.. I also do not have time to give her the attention she is craving....So she leaves me a message today..."Stephanie I have been leaving you messages and you have not returned my calls..CALL ME ITS IMPORTANT!" and she is saying this with a sarcastic tone of voice.

Now what the hell could be sooo important that my Landlady desperatly needs to speak with me??? COuld it be that oone of her other tenants need something done?? Or could it be that she wants me to make a phone call for her?? HMMM ..it cant have anything to do with me because my rent is paid and the 1st isnt till Wednesday SOO WHAT DOES SHE WANT! I swear I cant take it no more I am either going to change my number or end up telling her in her face that I am not her personal assistant! She acts like I dont have my won life to  live my own children to raise, my own household to run or my own husband to please.... its ridiculous and frustrating!

I will call her when I am good and ready and not one damn day before!

Dont mind me folks I am just ranting and raving as usual.

WELL GOODNIGHT ALL AND TAKE CARE!