Just answering some questions...

 

     

 

I am using this entry to answer some questions that I was asked from one of my reader's.

Do you know what kind of puppy you want?

I've always wanted a Yorkie but realistically LOL they are not within my budget soooo I will settle for a puppy that is a cutie patootie and who will not grow to be very big(due to limited Apt space, We have a backyard but I don't want to leave my dog out there when its cold outside).

Why do you think your fiance is afraid of taking that walk down the aisle? Do think its still important after you've been together so long already? Do you think it'll change anything?

I think he is afraid that maybe if we do tie the knot things would change between us, Maybe things would get worse instead of better. I really don't know I have asked him about it on several occasions and all he tells me is that we are fine the way we are and we do not need a piece of paper to define our love.

For me ,I have gotten used to it in a way, you know its like if we are married already, we just don't have the marriage certificate acknowledging it. Honestly at times though it does bother me when I have to fill out paperwork and no matter how long we have been together I still have to check SINGLE....I kind of get embarrassed because everybody knows that I live with him and we have children together especially at my kids school). It's sad but people are still judged on their marital status.

They feel like just because you have children or you live together for many years that you should be married, But honestly people should just let everyone make their own decisions without worrying about being up to society's standards..AM I RAMBLING LOL SRRRRRY :)

What was it like finding out that you were pregnant at such a young age? what did your family think?

At first I was really nervous because I had to tell my mother, but honestly a part of me was very happy because at last I was going to have someone who could give me unconditional love, who I could return unconditional love to, Someone who would need me, Someone who would keep my company...I felt like why not have a baby I mean I wasn't doing anything else with my time ( I didn't have too many friends I really didn't go out at all) I know a teenage girl should not be thinking like this and as much as I love my son I now realize that I should have waited....But anyway my mother was upset but at the time she really didn't show it, When we told her I was pregnant she was kind of indifferent towards this news...Her response was "Well you know what you have to do" I guess what she meant was well now you have to grow up and be a parent and its not going to be easy....

I remembered her always telling me that if I were to get pregnant that she would kick me out so I was kind of hesitant to tell her for that reason but surprisingly she didn't( I ended up moving out anyway when I was 6 mths because I was being treated like crap).

Even though she made my life miserable while I was pregnant, Like always putting me down, letting my lil sister hit me in the stomach(that's when I moved out) and other things that I will not get into right now, I can not say that she is a bad grandmother..She really loves my kids and she is always there for them(I guess it just me she doesn't like sometimes)

As for the rest of my family they really didn't care... to them I was just another teenager having a baby(I'm glad I showed them all that even though Yes I had my children young I am a damnnn good mother who had never abandoned my children and who has always made sure that my children had everything they needed and wanted without having to ask anyone for help)

So I guess this answers those questions I hope I didn't make this entry to long LOL..ANd once again feel free to ask me anything. 

See Ya'll later :))