UGHH UGHH and more UGHH..can it get any worse??

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Beware: I just want to warn all of you that I am letting my naughty side come out in this entry and there is some foul language.

Why when it seems that all I want to do is remain calm and not stress out over the holidays, trouble and drama always seems to find me.....

First off I have been feeling like shit the past two days. I must caught a bug from somewhere. my throat is hurting, I have a headache and my body just feels sick...

Anyway remember that I wrote a letter to my landlady the other day about me not being able to clean her buildings for less than the amount that she was paying the other person... I tried my best in this letter to let her know that I in no way shape or form was trying to offend her or in any way trying to be mean.

Welllll this lady has the fucking nerve to call me and go wild on me!!!!! She did not even let me say anything!! She managed to throw everything in my face.... The fact that I have 3 kids, myself and Ben who are living in the apartment. That she has to pay Heat and Hot water for us and we are a lot of people and how her bill is extrememly high and she feels that since we have more children than any one else in the buildings that we use up alot more of it..BULLSHIT!!! SHe knew when she rented me this apartment how many heads there was in my family. At that time heat and hot water were INCLUDED in my rent...so wtf is her problem nOOW???

She also said that I am the only one who has access to the backyard and how I am the only one who has those priviledges ....UHHH hellloooo stupid ass I live on the first floor and therefore thats the ONNLY reason I have access...HAD I lived on the second floor I would not have had that priviledge....AND FYI I allow anyone in my building to feel free to use the backyard whenever they want, for the simple fact that we are all like family.

SHHE also threw in my face that I had all my extra storage downstairs in her basement and that once again I was the only one allowed to do this...First of all she was the onewho offered me the space because she knew that the apt was too small for us and she said since the space wasnt being used it was fine SOO why in the helll are you bringing that shit up??

She said that it was like a slap in the face to her when I wrote that if she doesnt pay me the 200.00that  I wouldnt do the job....She said all the priviledges that I have given you and you want to charge me??

She said sooo many other things that I dont feel like writing down here because it would take all day....I tried to explain to her my intentions and the idiot did not let me ..She treated me as if I were a 14 yr old girl instead of 28 yr old grown ass woman..... She then says I will have to call you back I have a phone call from Israel (Yes she is Jewish) and she hangs up leaving me with all the words in my mouth...I just burst out crying becasue I am sooo fucking mad..HOW DARE SHE THROW THAT ALL IN MY FACE WHEN I HAVE BENT OVER BACKWARDS FOR THIS WOMEN AND AT ONE POINT IN TIME SHE HAD ME RUNNING AROUND LIKE A CHICKEN WITHOUT A HEAD DOING ALL HER ERRANDS EVEN CLEANING HER FREAKING 2 STORY HOUSE FOR 30.00.

DID I complain??? NO I did it because I wanted to give her back something..... When she asked me if I could come to her house and be a server and waitress for her dinner party for just 30.00 DID I complain NOOOO I said OK.

When she has all her freaking tenants in the buildings knocking on my door sometimes 10 11 at night because they have a leak or whatever and I had to get my ass out of bed and see what was going on DID I complain NOOOO.. All the apartments that I posted on the internet for rent for her as well as showed them for her because she couldnt be bothered to do it herself. At one point in time I had over 60 people a day calling or knocking on my door so that they can see the apartments. DID I complain NOOOO.... AND all I got out of that was 100.00.. WHen if it was a realtor they would get the value of the apartment(which by the way she was renting ranging from 1000-1350).. All the people I had to screen because she wanted the right tenant..... DID I throw alll this in her face NOOOO.....even when she made me feel like shit yesterday I still didnt say nothing..... I fucking collect her rent from the tenants each month. I  have to make sure that I am home every beginning of the month to let COn Edison and Keyspan in so that they can check the meters ALL this I do for free... I make keys for people who have lost theirs..I buy garbage bags when they have run out... DO I call her up and deduct the money that I have taken out my pocket..NOOO   Arent we even??? As much as she has done for me I have done for her and that it EXACTLY what I wrote in my email......  She said she is tired of being taken advantage of...when the hell have I taken advantage of her??

I couldnt hold it in anymore... I was getting the worst headache... I kept on thinking about all she said and I finally called her. I told her everything that I have been feeling for a long time. After I let her know how I felt that is when she tried to back track and tell me oHH you know I only said what I said becuase in your email you threw what you did for me in my face and that hurt me..This freaking lady must be going senile..... I NEVER mentioned anything of the sort.... Now she starts telling me oHH Stephanie lets just forget about it and move on....move on my ass I am never going to forget how she made me feel and I told her as much..Things will never be the same!!!

I am pasting a copy of email that I sent to her.. I want to know if any one out there believes that I came out my face. Do you think anything I said was offensive. Maybe Im the one who is wrong..Give me your honest opinions...  I am not  trying to say that this lady has not done kind things for us....SHe has! and when she is calm she is a very nice lady but I dont know she must forget to take her valium and the demon comes out of her.

 

I am going to start this email off by saying how much Benji and I really from the bottom of our hearts appreciate all the kindness, patience and love you have bestowed upon us.

You may not know it but you have become just like one of my family to me. I hope you realize that as much as you have been there for me I have also done my best to be there for you whenever you have needed anything from me. It does not bother me at all when you ask me to do something and I always do it with my heart and not because I want to get rich off of you like some people who shall remain nameless but we both know who they are. I never throw it in anyone's face how much I've helped them and I expect the same from others.

 

I don't want you to be offended or saddened by what I am going to tell you now.

I know we have the kind of friendship where we can be honest with one another without it ruining anything.

Honestly when you told me yesterday that Maria no longer wanted to do the job and if I could do it but you would only be able to give me 125.00 to do the same amount of work that Maria was doing for 200.00. I don't think its fair that Maria and Mariano say that they can't afford their rent so the next person whether it be myself or someone else has to settle for less. If they can no longer do the job then they should pay whatever their rent is. Whoever does do the job should get paid the same amount because after all it is a lot of work to maintain both buildings as well as the front. Speaking for myself I know that the job will done the way it should be if not better.

I am not trying to be greedy please don't get me wrong. I think at this moment they can afford their rent more than we can afford ours and this 200.00 will certainly help us out a great deal. After all their rent is not as high as ours and no matter what circumstance we are in we always manage to pay our rent for the month even if at times it is a little late.

I know you were telling me yesterday that you couldn't afford to give me more than 125.00, but maybe if they pay what they should pay you would be able to pay the next person what they deserve.

Like I said before I am willing to do it I do not mind at all, but the same way they looked out for themselves before when they were saying that it was toomuch work for 100.00 I have to look out for us as well.

Otherwise let them continue to do it. I think they are the ones being selfish.

Normally I wouldn't have said anything because I don't like when others get upset with me or if they think bad of me. Many people including yourself have told me that I have to learn to open my mouth and say what I think is right . In this situation I think its only fair.

Once again believe me when I say that I am not trying to take advantage of you and your kindness or even looking for a way to escape paying my rent, all I am doing is sticking up for myself.

I apologize if in any way I have upset you but I think you can understand where I am coming from.

I promise you that if you do give me this job that I will give it my all if not more but not for less than Maria was doing it for because after all I feel if anything I deserve it more than they did.

Anything else that you ask me for I would do it in a heartbeat without even thinking about charging you but this cleaning up after everyone I'm sorry that is different.

 

I did not call you and tell you the way I felt over the phone because I didn't want to hear that you get upset but after you read this email please call me.

 

Sincerely yours,

Stephanie 

I know this entry turned out to be very long but bear with me I just HAD to get this off my chest and besides its my journal, I can write as much as I want LOL LOL LOL

Tomorrow is X-mas eve and I hope all of you are done with your shopping and just getting ready to sit back, relax and wait till mignight..

Goodnight and take care all......