What if we didnt have to grow up??

                                           I need to get a life LOL... I have not gone out in sooooo long its not even funny.. It seems like all I do is sit home with kids, either watch Tv, sit at the computer, cook or clean... I have done nothing that I can actually talk about that would be exciting..."Sigh" what a shame!

I did nothing today but stay in bed... I did all my cleaning yesterday...There is absolutely nothing to do beside cook something and get the kiddies ready for school tomorrow.. I know BORING.....

My mother did invite me to her house today..My brother was going to bring the baby over so we can see her. I decided not to go...I cant afford to waste money back and forth on a taxi. Right now I have my meat defrosting... I was planning on making spagetti with chicken parmesean (dont know if I spelled right) but guess what?? I have no spagetti sauce ..SUCKS... So I know I making Chicken Cutlets with what I dont know.

I'm sitting here listening to some cool Christmas music on Aol radio.... Kinda makes me sad ..brings back memories of when I was a little girl and how much I used to look forward to Christmas morning.... OOOO to be young again.... I remember being in my teen years and wishing and praying for the time to come when I would be grown up with my own apartment..just to get away from my mother...But now that the time is here and I am just getting older and older with more responsibilities I would give anything to be a little girl again! To be innocent and invisible to all the troubles going on in the world..To wake up and not have to worry about anything because mommy was there to make my breakfast and help me get through the day....To never know what it is to cry for money when a bill is due...and never wonder what troubles tomorrow will bring...To look at the world through a childs eyes not knowing the full extent of how cruel people really can be.. To be able to grow up again and this time be able to make better decisions and do things the right way so that I would not suffer as much...To go back and take heed of all that my mother told me....OOOO If only......

I guess there is really nothing to do but continue to go forward and learn from our mistakes.... if only these mistakes didnt hurt as much and they were easier to get over....

My children have been driving me crazy all day today!!! It seems like they thrive on making each other miserable.... All day all I hear is the constant nagging and complaining about each other..."Mommy Jonathan doesnt want to play with me!!!! " SOO you cant force me to play with you!! MOMMy tell him to play with me...MOMMy she hit me MOMMMy he hit me.... MOmmy tell DJ to stop bothering me ...NO MOMMy he is the one bothering me ..Tell him  to stop..MOMMMy she called me stupid....DOnt tell me to shut up MOMMMy she told me to shut up NOOO I didnt you did first!!! Give me back my toy!! NOOO I had it first MOMMMy tell him to give me back my toy!! HE wasnt even playing with it until he seen me playing with it!!! NOO I go first MOMMMy I go first MOMMy shes not sharing... I hate you!! I hate you tooo! MOMMMy MOMMMy MOMMmy.......OMG its unbelievable that these children cannot play with each other nicely for more than an hr!! Are all kids like this..LOL ...So right now they are all grounded in their roooms on their beds..not playing no tv....if you get READ A BOOK!! My oldest boy and my daughter were actually fighting because my daughter was kissing on him and he was telling her to stop and she wouldnt so he went and pushed and almost broke her back on my tv stand... So of course I spanked him >>>What is your problem??? MOMMM but she kept on kissing me and I told her to stop but she wouldnt....OHHH Ok so that gives you the right to break her back ..MOMMM but she was kissing me!!!! SOOO all you had to do was tell me and I wouldve made her stop, Would it make you feel better if we were in the hospital with her right now just cause she was kissing you???!!!

You can see that I wasnt lying when I said they were driving me crazy and NOO I am not exagerrating...Kids KIDS Kids.... you gotta love them!! 

Wanted to give credit where credit is due..Ty roxy for the cute graphics :)

Welll let me go cook .. might be back later with another entry..LATERR