Sad BUT is it true?

 

Four Reasons Why a Man Might Cheat

 

 

Cheat and get caught and you'll pay the price, which is often the severing of a long-standing and loving relationship. Why take that risk?

Not that this excuses him in any way, but here are four reasons a man might give to justify cheating on his wife, according to Men's Health editor-in-chief David Zinczenko, who is also the author of 'Men, Love & Sex: The Complete User's Guide for Women' and 'The Abs Diet' series of books.

Apparently, some singles aren't deterred by a wedding ring when it comes to dating. But they almost always regret it.

• Find Out Why

1. To fulfill his biology
It's Darwinian! "A man's main job, besides killing the saber-tooth, is to spread his seed in order to ensure the survival of his genetic legacy," says Zinczenko. "It's a man's biology to want to wander." Of course, he's quick to point out that doesn't mean men should wander. Still, the biological urge will be strong.

2. To get attention
Some men cheat because they aren't having frequent sex at home, but others who do have frequent sex at home still cheat. Why? "Because cheating isn't just about the sex," asserts Zinczenko. "Just as a woman who cheats maybe seeking more affection than she's getting at home, a man often cheats because he's seeking the attention that he no longer gets at home." A new woman has a certain allure and mystery. Add to that a bit of flirtatious seduction, and many men just can't resist -- no matter how good they have it at home.

3. To get out
Some men want to get out of their marriage, but they don't have the guts to properly end it. So they cheat in an attempt to drive their wife away. For some men, "the only way out is to commit the relationship sin that drives a woman away for good. It's not right, but it's what happens," admits Zinczenko.

4. To change up his play list
File this under excitement. A long and loving marriage is often about comfortable routine. For some men, that routine may be boring. A new relationship adds zing and spice to life. Take heart, wives. "What men really want in relationships (and what I suspect women also want) is to be able to take comfort in the routine of a long-term commitment, as long as there are some surprises that make it feel like a new relationship every once in a while," asserts Zinczenko.

Is love really that blind??(another one of my rants)

                              

                      I fixed it D....

 

Hiya everyone......

I have been quite a slacker lately.. havent I? Well things are going okay over here.

The other day Ben and I got into a rather heated arguement. Funny thing is the discussion that we were having wasnt about us in the beginning but as the conversation progressed.... a 180 degree turn was made and it somehow ended up being about us....Does that make sense to ya'll??

The whole thing started because earlier on in the day his sis in law(who is married to his middle brother , they have two children ages 1 yr and the other just 1 mth) called me to tell me about an arguement that she and her husband had had the previous night. She commenced to tell me that this arguement escalated to the point where it got physical. What started this whole arguement in the first place was that they had just gotten home and she started to take care of the older child(like take off her coat and start to put her to sleep) while the baby was just placed in the playpen with her coat still on.  So after awhile I guess the baby got very uncomfortable and she started to cry.

Well (S) was still busy trying to out the other child to bed and( L) was too busy playing video games(what was told to me by her). So S tells L to stop playing video games and take care of his daughter. L chose to ignore her. S repeated herself this time with a more aggressive tone. L told her to take care of her own daughter. S proceeded to tell him that she was too busy trying to put the other child to sleep. L told her he didnt care what she was doing. At this time the baby is screaming her lungs out. S told him that she wasnt going to get the baby. L got up and went to the other room and started to go to sleep. So the baby just continued to cry getting more and more agitated. Finallyabout 20 mins later the baby is still crying but at this time she is losing her breath from crying so much. Finally L comes out the room and grabs the baby. He then tells S that she is stupid that she doesnt care about her daughter ETC ETC. SO he takes the baby into the other room and proceeds to make her comfortable. Finally the older child fell asleep. So S ( this is her telling me the story in her own words) goes into the other room to get the baby. AS she gets the baby she said she punches him in the chest because she was soo angry about what had happened earlier. He was going to push her but he realized that had he pushed her she would have fallen with the baby in her arms so he changed his mind. Anyway they continue to argue..... I dont know what happened but she said that he grabbed her by the neck and started choking her. She said that she was hitting him back. Finally he let her go ....... and I guess they continued to argue until they both got tired and went to bed. He did not sleep with her that night and hasnt slept with her since.

Ok anyway she calls me and ask me if I could tell his brother(which is Ben ) if he could talk to L about what went on and how L had choked her and stuff.

I should have known better than to get involved in this family situation.  When Ben came home after he had gotten settled down I started to explain to him what happened.

I think that his brother must have called him earlier in the day as well and told him his side of the story. So Ben was like I dont want to hear it.  I already know what happened and my brother was just defending himself because she always wants to put her hands on him and doesnt expect him to do anything in return.

He said that his brother had already called him and told him that basically the marriage was over and he did not want to be with S anymore. Ben then proceeds to tell me all the negative things that L has said about S. Now I feel thats its only fair to defend S because she is trying to take care of the kids as best as she can. I mean these kids are literally 1 yr apart to the tee. The oldest turned 1 yr on Dec 16th 2005 and the baby was born on Dec 15th 2006. So it is hard for her. But L says that S wants him to do everything, like after work ..go to the supermarket for milk and diapers and then come home and help her take care of the kids. He feels he works all day long to pay the bills and all S does is stay home and take care of the kids. He feels that S should get up and get a job. He also feels that she should go to the supermarket herself and do everything that has to do with the physical caretaking of the babies herself because he works.

NOw in my opinion I feel that OK he works but they are his kids too! He had fun making them too! She shouldnt have to force him to take care of his kids! He should want to come home and bond with them because he hasnt been there all day! Its not fair to a mother that just because the father works that she should be responsible for all the childrens needs. I mean when do we get a break. A mothers job is 24 hrs a day 7 days a week basically. Why cant the father help every now and again when he sees that we are at our breaking point!

In Ben's opinion he feels like his brother that S is just being lazy and is just using the kids as an excuse not to do anything else. He also says that most of what S told me was twisted to be in her favor. I told him anyone of them could be lying. He was adamant that his brother was telling him the truth and that S caused all the problems because she wants his brother to basically be a slave.

I then told him(even though I should have kept my mouth shut) that I see firsthand when they visit that L does not help S at all with the kids. I told Ben that he has even witnessed this himself. I even met them in the Drs. Clinic and L was acting like an ass. Both kids were crying and he was telling S very loudly in front of people that a father is to only provide financially for their children that they didnt have to be the caretaker that thats what they have their mother for. He then told Her" those are your kids you take care of them". I was soooo embararassed cause I knew people had heard this.

Ben didnt care. He said that that was his brother and he was going to believe and be there for his brother. Seriously what gets me sooo mad about Ben is that no matter WHAT his family does he is always defending them even if they are wrong. This just irks my nerves because why cant he see that they are not PERFECT. Just because its his family it does not mean that he has to be one sided on everything. I told him that thats the reason why his brothers never grow up because they always have him to spoil them and tell them that everything they do is oK. He is the oldest and more responsible of the 3 boys. His other brother has a girlfriend and 2 kids as well. He has no job....they live from house to house(whoever will accept them ..they lived with me at one point in time) has no money for an apt but though has money to support his weed habit but meanwhile Ben defends him. His mother who lives right beside us is about 1 yr behind in rent. I have to hear about this all the time from my landlady. Yet BEn stills defends his mother, saying that yes his mother owes rent but that the landlady still ahsnt repaired things in the apt. WTF. How do you expect her to repair anything if there is rent owed! I dont care if you rent a box from someone on the street fact is you still have to pay that person rent because YOU agreed to rent this box fromt them! At first it was that his mother and boyfriend did not have jobs.... OK so my landlady said listen I'll give you a break...When you get a job you just pay me......1 yr later they BOTH have jobs but are STILL NOT paying WTF and this is right and you still sit there and defend your mother are you insane?????

So what started out as having nothing to do with us eventually ended in us throwing insults at one another. Me throwing in his face all that is wrong with his family and him throwing in my face all that was wrong with ME..... At this point I am exremely frustrated because why are you throwing this at ME??? I am not doing anything wrong but telling you the truth about your family. You just can not accept the truth. So I am yelling at him now. (thank god my children are asleep).....  I start to cry because I am so frustrated....He is telling me to quiet down that the neighbors can hear me. I dont care what the neighbors hear ... I am too upset. Finally we start to rationalize things. I calm down ... we talk so more....He tells me how he feels.. I tell him how I feel...and then we just let it go. I ended the conversation by telling him that if he wants to build this wall between us which consists of him and his family and me on the outside so be it. I will never get involved with anything that has to do with his family again. I told him I will never win when it comes to his family and he basically told me that I was right that no mattter what his family was about he would never turn his back on them.

Dont get me wrong.... I love that he is there for his family... I love that he protects his family(thats what you call a good man) But what I can not stand is that no matter what he can not ADMIT that his family is going about their lives the wrong way.

I love my family and I will always be there for them but when my mother is wrong (or my sisters) I let them know and I dont care if they get upset at me. If not me then who else will tell them the truth??? This is all I want from him... To learn how to tell his family....LISTEN stop doing what you are doing... YOU are wrong.... and then give them advice on how they can correct if not then when will they ever learn??????

 

Well this entry has gone on long enough....there is still more to the story but I will add the rest in a later entry.......

Take Care YA"LL

update on my kiddies

          

 

Yesterday I made an entry and I failed to let anyone know how my kiddies are doing...(sherms brought it to my attention LOL).

They are going great...... Though they are still driving me insane!.... I mean do all siblings love to make each other's lives miserable?? It seems like my children enjoy getting on each others nerves.

Another thing that is driving me insane is watching movies with my oldest son. DOnt get me wrong I love to watch movies with them but for the past couple of weeks my son has gotten the habit of asking what every word means.... LITERALLY...  We are all sitting there into the movie and every couple of seconds he has a question....."MOM what does hysterical mean, Mom what does illiterate mean....  and this goes on throughout the whole movie.... At first I didnt mind because hey sometimes children do not understand certain things but when I noticed that it is fot every littttle thing now it is annoying.( I know he kknows what it means but for some reason he enjoys doing this)

ANother new thing that is going on is that we have started family therapy. We all go to the same Pyschiatrist that my older son sees. We go about once every 2 weeks. The DR thinks that this is important for the treatment of my son. I agree. I mean I think every family needs some outside help.... What he is helping us with now is the ongoing sibling rivalry between them.... SO far its not working but I still have hope.

In a later entry I will go into more detail but today I just want to make it quick because we are all going out to do something with the kids. I want to take them to Barnes and Nobles and then after that I want to take them to Build A Bear workshop.

I dont know if they deserve it though becuase today they have been acting up more than usual. We'll see if they improve over the next hour.

SO overall the kiddies are doing fine.....

 

 

 

 

 

I'll be back soon..... Enjoy the rest of the day :)

No I still love you Journal :)

           

 

 

I have been neglecting my journal a whole lot..... last entry I made was on the 11th ..WOW I'm bad!!

I havent really had too much to write about though.....Everything is still the same.

We are still struggling to pay the bills and the rent..... I really need to get my ass back to work. 

Yesterday I had to go to the Public Assistance office because they sent me a letter saying that they were going to close my case because I had missed an appointment..... Okay I really can not afford for these idiots to close my case right now!!

As much as I didnt want to go... I went and thank GOD it wasnt a long wait... It turned out to be really quick. I waited only about 45 mins as opposed to 3 damm hrs. When he called my name I almost ran to him .... I was so surprised LOL..... Anyway it turned out that he said that this letter was sent to me wrongfully and that he was going to fix it.  Thank GOD it was that simple.  He also asked if I was working and I told I was working and that I recently let my job go because of my anxiety and panic disorder.... He then told me that I needed to go back to their physicians so that they can determine if I can work... if not they are going to have to put me into a job search program....UMMMM hello I was able to work and I can find my own job .... what I need help with is getting over this damn anxiety that has literally taken over my life.... I dont want to sit my ass home...... I want to work and make my own damn money like I was....... But this anxiety takes ahold of me and I can not do anything,.... No grocery shopping, I cant take my kids to the park, I cant even take them to the damn library that is 2 blocks away because I am sooo scared to be out by myself..... I have books here that needed to be returned in Sept that are still sitting here..... I can just imagine the late fee that I am going to have to pay....

ANyway so they gave me an appt to go back on the 31st to see what they are going to do with me..... I am going to go back to work even if it kills me because I can not waste my time with this welfare crap!!.... I mean dont get me wrong it helps out alot.... I get foodstamps..... and they also help me pay a lil of my rent which is a blessing...... I dont want anyone getting the wrong idea... I am not abusing the system..... I have worked up till just recently that I let my job go(they knew that I was working) Also Ben works (he has been working since we have been together) and he also pays child support even though we are together..... SOOO we pay our taxes!!! and Ben PAYS them back what they give is you can say because they deduct 200.00 each week from his check.....

I wanted to go back to school and finish getting my bachelors but realistically I dont know if that is going to happen.... Things have been too tight right now with just Ben working and even with PA. We'll see what happens..... I think I will start seeing a therapist again maybe he or she can help me overcome this because franky the pills are not enough anymore...Sometimes I feel like I dont even want to live anymore... I cant tolerate waking up and feeling like this..... knowing that I am hurting my family by having this disorder.... Lucky thing that I am a coward to even attempt to take my own life...... I just pray that I dont have to live like this forever..... its bad enough 6 yrs of my life I feel like have been wasted ...... I have lived but I have not enjoyed living.... I am grateful that the lord has kept me here to take care of my children ....but if it werent for these kids I dont think I could stand another day living like this!

What else can I write about.....Ohh yea yesterday supposedly my mother in laws apartment was broken into.... The reason I say supposedly is becasue I'm not too sure if I believe it!! I mean her boyfriend came and told me that someone got into the apt ...that everything was messed up and thrown all over the place.... OK now they live in a basement apt so before you get to the actual apt there is a lil hallway ...They had things stored there and he said that all of that was thrown all over and the door to get into the actual apt was kicked in....BUT he didnt GO into his apt because he said he was nervous that the person was still inside the apt...UHHH come on NOW what idiot stays in the house they robbed ???,,, ANyway I asked him if he wanted me to go down with him...and he said no that he had called the cops already..... OK good... So  I waited with him outside... and waited and waited and still no cops . SO I told him to call again.... HE was like you know what I am going to go into the apt if I dont come back out then you know someone was still in there ... I said OK.....5 mins later he comes back up and says that no one was in there but that YES someone had stolen some things....MIND you STILL NO COPS.... SO I asked him what it was that was stolen...He said jewelry, money, a playstation, and maybe a laptop that he wasnt sure.... OK so I asked him if there was a lot of money that was stolen, he proceeded to tell me that YES ...he had money from his job (im assuming about 300) that he was holdong to give to the landlord and that my mother in law had also cashed her check and that money was there as well.... OK now I feel bad because it seems that the robbers got away with a lot.....BUT for someone who had just gotten robbed HE DIDNT SEEM TOO UPSET... I mean I would be crying and cursing and calling the police over and over...WELL NOT HIM..... What also seemed strange to me was that he said that he noticed the playstation was messing becuase the wires were still there..OK NOW WHAT IS SOMEONE GOING TO DO WITH A PLAYSTATION THAT HAS NO WIRING DUHHHHH !!!

Anyway my mother in law is on her way home from work...when she gets there ...she proceeds to tell me what happened..... SO I once again asked her what it was that was taken.... SHe also agreed that the jewelry and the playstation was taken, but the laptop was still there because she had hiddin it from her Boyfriend... I then asked her how much money was taken...She says OHHH not much ...maybe about 50.00 dollars...HMMMMM THEN WHY DID HE LIE ABOUT THE AMOUNT!

ANother thing that is strange is how the hell did they get in when they are two doors that you MUST have a key in order to get in...NOW these doors are LOCKED at all times! SO how could a robber possibly gain entrance??? AND WHY did the Robber GO INTO the basement when the are 4 apts in total in the building???

I hope this boyfriend of hers did not sell this shit and is now saying that they were robbed!  I dont like this guy and I certainly DO NOT trust him.....Hes the same guy who hasnt paid rent for said apt in 1 yr and he says it's ok because its a basement apt and it needs work...UHHH HELLO idiot you knew the condition of the apt when you moved in (apt was as is being that it is a basement and maybe not really a legal basement at that) so if you didnt want to pay rent then you shouldnt have moved there!! I have to hear from my damnn landlady how my mother in law and her boyfriend are lowlives and that she wants her money. NEVER move close to your inlaws..Funny thing is none of her sons BEN included feel that what there mother is doing is wrong.....UMMM hello!!! SHE hasnt paid rent for 1 yr...the landlady gave them a chance to both get a job ..she told them dont worry as soon as you get jobs you can start paying me....they both got jobs AND STILL not paying the fucking rent HOW IS THAT NOT WRONG!!!

 GEEZE people grow the fuck up..... In life you have to pay bills and rent even if its damn box you are renting from someone. If not go find another place!!

SORRY I lost myself there.... this topic bothers the hell out of me because then why the hell are we struggling to pay rent it its ok not to????

Anyways..... basically thats all thats been happening...my landlord is on her way back from florida(driving) ...As soon as she gets home thats when the fun begins.... I knew it was too damn quiet for too damn long..... I'm sure I will be having some new stories to tell once she gets back into her routine....

Well thats it folks..CIRCUS IS CLOSED FOR THE NIGHT!!! GO TO BED...... GO HAVE SOME FUN AND GET OUT OF MY JOURNAL LOL....... nah just joking stay as long as you like...loook around.... and ummm leave some comments while youre here OK???

GOODnight all and take care........................

 

 

 

We asked God To get out......

 

 

 

 

The following was written by Ben Stein and recited by him on CBS Sunday Morning Commentary

Herewith at this happy time of year, a few confessions from my beating heart: I have no freaking clue who Nick and Jessica are. I see them on the cover of People and Us constantly when I am buying my dog biscuits and kitty litter. I often ask the checkers at the grocery stores. They never know who Nick and Jessica are either. Who are they? Will it change my life if I know who they are and why they have broken up? Why are they so important?

 

I don't know who Lindsay Lohan is either, and I do not care at all about Tom Cruise's wife. Am I going to be called before a Senate committee and asked if I am a subversive? Maybe, but I just have no clue who Nick and Jessica are.

 

If this is what it means to be no longer young. It's not so bad.

 

Next confession:
I am a Jew, and every single one of my ancestors was Jewish. And it does not bother me even a little bit when people call those beautiful lit up, bejeweled trees Christmas trees. I don't feel threatened. I don' t feel discriminated against. That's what they are: Christmas trees.

 

It doesn't bother me a bit when people say, "Merry Christmas" to me. I don't think they are slighting me or getting ready to put me in a ghetto. In fact, I kind of like it. It shows that we are all brothers and sisters celebrating this happy time of year. It doesn't bother me at all that there is a manger scene on display at a key intersection near my beach house in Malibu .. If people want a creche, it's just as fine with me as is the Menoraha few hundred yards away.

 

I don't like getting pushed around for being a Jew, and I don't think Christians like getting pushed around for being Christians. I thinkpeople who believe in God are sick and tired of getting pushed around, period. I have no idea where the concept came from that America is an explicitly atheist country. I can't find it in the Constitution, and I don't like it being shoved down my throat.

Or maybe I can put it another way: where did the idea come from that we should worship Nick and Jessica and we aren't allowed to worship God as we understand Him? I guess that's a sign that I'm getting old, too. But there are a lot of us who are wondering where Nick and Jessica came from and where the America we knew went to.

 

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      In light of the many jokes we send to one another for a laugh, this is a little different: This is not intended to be a joke; it's not funny, it's intended to get you thinking.

 

      Billy Graham's daughter was interviewed on the Early Show and Jane Clayson asked her "How could God let something like this Happen?" (regarding Katrina)

 

      Anne Graham gave an extremely profoundand insightful response. She said, "I believe God is deeply saddened by this, just as we are, but for years we've been telling God to get out of our schools, to get out of our government and to get out of our lives. And being the gentleman He is, I believe He has calmly backed out. How can we expect God to give us His blessing and His protection if we demand He leave us alone?"

 

      In light of recent events...terrorists attack, school shootings, etc. I think it started when Madeleine Murray O'Hare (she was murdered, her body found recently) complained she didn't want prayer in our schools, and we said OK.

 

      Then someone said you better not read the Bible in school. The Bible says thou shalt not kill, thou shalt not steal, and love your neighbor as yourself. And we said OK.

 

      Then Dr. Benjamin Spock said we shouldn't spank our children when they misbehave because their little personalities would be warped and we might damage their self-esteem. We said an expert should know what he's talking about and we said OK.

 

      Now we're asking ourselves why our children have no , their conscience, why they don't know right from wrong, and why it doesn't bother them to kill strangers, classmates, and themselves.

 

      Probably, if we think about it long and hard enough, we can figure it out. I think it has a great deal to do with "WE REAP WHAT WE SOW."

 

      Funny how simple it is for people to trash God and then wonder why the world's going to hell.

 

      Funny how we believe what the newspapers say, but question what the Bible says.

 

      Funny how you can send 'jokes' through e-mail and they spread like wildfire but when you start sending messages regarding the Lord, people think twice about sharing.

 

      Funny how lewd, crude, vulgar and obscene articles pass freelythrough cyberspace, but public discussion of God is suppressed in the school and workplace.

 

      Are you laughing?

 

      Funny how when you forward this message, you will not send it to many on your address list because you're not sure what they believe, or what they will think of you for sending it.

 

      Funny how we can be more worried about what other people think of us than what God thinks of us.

 

      Pass it on if you think it has merit. If not then just discard it... no one will know you did. But, if you discard this thought process, don't sit back and complain about what bad shape the world is in.

 

I finally got some! "WINK WINK"

                                  TY TERRY for this wonderful TAG.... I LOVE IT...IT LOOKS SOO PRETTY!

Yesterday was Ben's birthday...Happy Birthday my love...

There wasnt too much money and he had to work...So I made him his favorite meal..which of course is the typical Hispanic's man's meal, Rice and Beans with Pork chops. I also baked him a cake even though he is not a cake person. Me and the kiddies sang him Happy Birthday..AWWW it was sweet.... He is officially older than me now but not for too long next mth on the 16th I will turn 29. SO he better enjoy being my elder while he can LOL...

We finallly got some alone time this afternoon....The kiddies were in school so we kind of took advantage of it lol.  I forgot how it feels to not have to look over your shoulder while also trying to concentrate on what you are doing LOL LOL... It was good.... UMMM sorry maybe thats a lil too much information excuse me if I'm acting a lil giddy but hey its been awhile.... HEHEHHEE

OMG I couldnt believe the news today. Yesterday on the news they came on and said that a newborn baby boy was stolen from the hospital at gunpoint and that there was manhunt for the suspected male.....COME TO FIND OUT that the mother of the baby made up the whole story....She killed the baby(by suffocation) and then dumped his body in a garbage . The garbage was collected and now they are searching the landfills for the baby's body....Supposedly the mother had gotten pregnant due to a rape.... She said everytime she looked at the baby she was reminded of getting raped and she couldnt live with that. Her boyfriend said that they were in the process of giving up the baby for adoption and that he doesnt know what happened. She killed the baby while on the bus to the hospital for his a check being that he was born prematurely...HE was only 2 weeks old!!!!

This broke my heart totally..... I mean it is everyones worst nightmare to have to go through a horror of getting raped. I understand that she was tormented by that happening to her.

But for the love of GOD it was not the baby's fault. He was an innocent angel that unfortunately came out of such an horrible tragedy.  AS much as I hurt that she had to experience something like that, I am also furious with her because she had other options!!! She could have left him in the hospital .... she could have at least left him with a family member or friend until the adoption process was over with!!!!

How can you do such a thing to a helpless being???? How was she able to commit this atrocity on a city bus????

There are so many couples out there who are desperatly trying to have a child who can't , or even trying to adopt and going through a long process, and then we have woman who can conceive by the blink of an eye, who dont deserve children that are killing these babies!!! I dont understand what goes through a person mind to actually do this!!

I cant stand to hear stories like this on the news.... I find it hard to get that poor baby out of my mind. Anyway at least the baby is now an angel again with the Lord and he doesnt have to suffer in this earth with a mommy who could never love him... SO SAD.

Nothing much going on here..Ty all for the comments left to me about my son's teacher. I feel way better knowing that I wasnt over reacting LOL....bUt since that episode she seems to have calmed down. SO hopefully things will stay like this for the rest of the year.

Everything else is pretty much calm as well, NO crazy landlord calling me and the neighbors are all away at work for the week so they are not bothering me either......

As far as bills and stuff..... We are trying to catch up little by little because of course now that I am no longer working things are screwed up.... I still have to pay the cable /internet/phone bill and the other half of the rent... I hope we can them paid over the next 2 weeks....

I was thinking about going back to work but you know what bottom line is I dont want to be stuck at a dead-end job and I am tired of doing retail.....

I am thinking about going back to college and finish off what I started.... I have 1 yr down in Early Childhood Education so I was thinking of going back. Before when I was going it got to be too much that I could handle working, then after work going to school and then coming home to take care of the kids and the household. I had to let one thing go and it was school.

I'll tell you one thing I am playing that Daily News Scratch Match thing everyday.. Maybe I'll get lucky LOL.... A man won 100,000 playing that...HEY you never know :)

Ben been playing the LOTTO since I met him, maybe he'll have better luck than I .....

WELLLL I think i ran out of gas here LOL ......Going to play some Canasta at Pogo.....

Take Care and Goodnight all.......

 

Just a quick Hi!

                              Thank you Cab!

 

LOL ... I was writing my last entry when I realized the time... I had to go out and pick up my kids.... I said I would be right back...BUTT I started doing other things and ummmm I didnt make it back till today...

Anyway in my last entry I started saying how I noticed that the excitement to write in my journal is sort of dwindling....WHY you ask?...Well I guess its because my life is on  kind of  a stand still right now. It seems like nothing new, different or exciting is going on with me right now..... I thought that 2007 would be different but sooo far its the same shit...

 

I'm tired of complaining about the same ole stuff...It gets repititive after a while and I dont want to bore none of you away LOL.

I have the same ole stories ...like how my neighbors are still taking advantage and how I am still the dumb one to continue letting it happen..... I just like doing stuff for other people..I just dont like when they do something for me its get thrown in my face.

I'm also one step away from cursing out my son's afterschool teacher.  So far I have been a polite and patient parent but this B I mean lady is getting on my last nerve.

For some reason she has a problem with my son because she feels like he comes home and tells me everything. She says that to her its not a big deal so why should he make it a big deal... First of all I love that my son feels comfortable enough to come home and let me know whats going on or if something is bothering him....I mean if there were more children who confided in their parents we would have less suicide with children and less children getting so frustrated and they go out and kill their peers or even their teahers (EX Columbine incident). She thinks that he is too big to be coming home and complaining to me. WTF ..First of all he is my child..Second of all she is his damn teacher ..She is there when I am not..She sees whats going on I dont... So even if my child got into it over something trivial, its her responsibility to come to me and let me know whats going on....

Latest incident was...The class were having a discussion about states (I think this is what it was about) ANd in this conversation it came up that the class said that Puerto Rico is a State, Now my son and I had looked into this last year when he asked this question and we looked on the internet where it says that Puerto Rico is NOT a state it is in fact a self goverened common wealth...Residents of PR can not vote in the presidential election for the US Etc...... OK since my son knows this, he told the class that he knew that PR was not a state.. SO the class gets alll excited and they start yelling at him that it is.... Of course my son starts yelling back that its not(meanwhile the teacher is letting this happen)..Well eventually a student asked the teacher and the teacher tells my son "Dylan for your information PR is a State.. SO YOU ARE WRONG! She even tells him that we have 52 states WTF last time I checked on the internet we only had 50 states!!!!

Now my son is really upset. SO when I pick him he tells me what happened.. I get really upset but I dont let my son see that.

I told him "Dylan this best thing to do in a situation like that is to back off, and then go get facts proving that you are right. Once you have those facts just hand it over to the person or class or teacher and say now its up to you if you want to read this.... and its up to you to accept that you arewrong...

The next day I go pick him up and I have all facts stating that PR is indeed not a State(and correct me if I am wrong.. I got these facts off the internet and from what I know from school PR has not become a State) ....Now once again I see that my son is upset yet again!! I aske what happened now...He goes on to tell me that he got yelled at because he put on his winter hat and his teacher told him that boys do not wear hats in the buildings..(Now I know all about having good manners and yes boys are supposed to take off their hats when they are in a building) BUT give me a fucking break here... It is time to GO HOME..and I told all 3 of them that they are to be ready when I get there so we can just walk out instead of having to waste time to put on hat, gloves, scarves or whatever........ I look around I see kids everywhere wearing their hats SOO WTF.. This teacher must have an issue with my kid....

SO I confront her in a polite and quiet way.. I let her know that I WAS the one who told him to put on his hat....ITS FREaKING WINTER... She puts on a face and says OOHH I dont know what the big deal is.... She starts ranting and raving how my son is too sensitive and how he doesnt have to tell me everything....NOW I AM getting upset but I keep my cool..

I then bring up what happened yesterday in the class....She puts on another face and says what are you talking about...... I dont remember none of that.. SO I have to remind the TEACHER about HER discussion in HER class..... Finally she remembers and says Well you know PR is a state the class was right and its Dylan's fault for being sensitive.... I say WELLL PR isnt a state and I have a document proving that!!!!

She shuts up soooo fast.. SO I told her Listen it is up to you to let the parents know what is going on with their children..... Stop telling my son that he shouldnt tell me stuff.....So she starts yelling and carrying on OMG.. To all other parents and teacher it looks like we are arguing.. She's all waving her hands and yelling and it takes everything I have to not start yelling at her back!!!

I dont want to create a scene and look like an irate parent with no class..So I let her get her 10 mins of shine acting like a fucking child throwing a tantrum..... I kindly tell her to leave me son alone and if there is a problem with him then she needs to be a the teacher and let me knOW! I then thank her for her time and I walk away....... LOL I left her with her fat ass mouth hanging open...The next day she was absent..I guess she was too embarressed to show her face!!

I explain to my son that he can not be overly sensitive as he is going to be heading into the 6 th grade in sept(JUNIOR HIGH) and everything and everybody are going to more difficult.... Best thing to do is walk away when you are dealing with an ignorant person... I hope he gets it.... I mean I understand how he feels but he needs to grow a hard shell or else everyone will make his life miserable...... Problem with my son though is that he always has to be right and if he knows he's right he will fight to prove it! OHH GOD ....KIDS!

ALL I know is that next time this teacher will definitely get a piece of me!!

I made Spaggetti and homemade meatballs today...Can I say DELICIOUS!!!!

Well I kept you all reading long enough ......Goodnight and take care.......................

                           

 

 

Another Weekend coming on and I have done nothing that I am excited to talk about...... Like my title says Same Shit Different Day...... It seems like my life is moving around in circles and always repeating itself like a broken record.

Its been awhile since I posted an entry because frankly my motivation is slowly winding done.... I mean Hell who's wouldnt if you had nothing new to write about except the same ole rants and raves....

I used to looooooove adding graphics to my journal and now it seems like all it is is work LOL... I hate having to spend about 15 mins uploading the file that I want to use.... Another thing is I thought I had the adding a background thing mastered but it seems like all it was was luck becuase for the life of me I cant seem to do it again LOL...Which is pissing me off because I have soo many backgrounds to use , now they are taking up space on my puter and I cant even use them..DARNIT..... OHH wait BRB Its 5:33pm and I have to go pick up my brats ooops I mean angels LOL.......... TATA for now

Kick that Bad boy to the CURB

Dedicated to those of us who need to kick that bad boy to the curb..... I've been there ..took me time to do it but I finally did and I met the man that I am supposed to be with...... Dont let them bring us down..There are good men out there..one for each of us!!!

Happy January 1 2007 Beware: Adult language contained in this entry

HEY Hey HEyyy Happppppy New YEARR!!!!

Official day of 2007,  I wonder how everyone else's day has been so far.....

Mine almost started with a tragedy..... The lord must have been with us all this morning.

It started out fairly boring...... My landlord came to collect rent even though it was only the 31st.... Tsk I tell you they dont give us a break...after that I went outside and started to clean up the front yard a bit because it was just downright distasteful....

While doing this I was contempating whether or not we were going to go to my mothers house. I was kind of tired and feeling depressed because I dont like New Year's Eve....

                       

Anyway when Ben came home we decided to go because my mother had already cooked for us and besides it wasnt fair to the kids to spend it at home bored to death....

We got there, everything was good... We ate, danced, talked and laughed our asses off.

Now mind you I live in New York and I dont know about anywhere else but here in New York it can get kind of crazy with all the idiots and Lowlives we have roaming around....

Not only that but my mother does not live in the best of neighborhoods....and to add to that she lives in a housing complex which is also known as the PROJECTS.

I know some people will say EWWW the Projects but hey realistically its hard to be able to afford rent, bills and everything else there is and also pay to live in a private apt building or eeven owning a home. Projects offer reasonable rent fees for low income families as well as the advantage of not having to pay for light or gas... I know if they offered me to live in public housing I would most likley take it .....

Anyway where she lives at is predominately African American neighborhood with a mixture of Hispanic....

Well there we are sitting in her living room waiting for the ball to drop on TV, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1!! We did not even get the chance to say Happy New Year when all we heard was glass shattering all over the place!! A BULLET had come right through her window!!!!! It went through the window through the venetian blind through a Wine Glass (she had her mini bar in front of the window) and through the SOFA!!!!! The sofa was in front of the window as well....OMGGGG!!!!  BEn and my daughter were on that couch as well as my sisters friends mother...... WE WERE ALL SHOCKED.... Ben grabbed my daughter not knowing if they were hit!! and ran out of the living room, My sister's friends's mother just stood sitting there in shock we did not know if she was hit!! The rest of us threw ourselves to the ground fearing that more bullets were going to come through....

After 2 mins we realized there were no more bullets coming through so we all got up and started making sure everyone was ok...THANK GOD NO ONE WAS HURT!!! The Lord and a guardian angel must have been protecting us because by an inch one of them could have gotten shot right through the back!!!!

After initial fear, it turned to anger that some FUCKING moron idiot could have taken an innocent life just because their dumb asses were BORED...We calleed the police 4 fucking times and can YOU believe the police did not show up till 10.00am this morning talking about "OHHH we are sorry we're late" What the FUCK... what do you mean Late.... You never freaking showed!!!!  I swear and I normally dont swear but I swear if any of my children would have gotten hurt or anyone in my family members... I would have been in jail today becuase I would have run outside and kill somebody.... Its UNBELIEVABLE that you think that you are in the safety of your own home and some jackass decides that they are just going to shoot becuase they have a bug up their ass ...... not knowing that they could have just killed someone!!!! My mom lives on the second floor... so I cant believe that if this person just wanted to have fun and shoot up in the air that it could have through a second floor window... I believe that this LOWlife scum of the earth wanted to shoot through a window....

NYPD SUCKS bigtime!!!! I bet you if it were a call that they recieved and it was a chance to brutalize a balck person they would have been there so fast it would be funny...but since it was just a bullet through a window and no one got hurt so they figure SO what who cares..... HAd they come when they first got the call they could have probably taken this asshole off the streets..... Because not only about 15 mins later 3 more shots were fired again right in front of the building!!!!

3 shots fired the first time and one of those shots found their way through our window and is right now lodged inside my mothers couch Thank GOD she had leather sofa's ...had this regular cloth and pillow sofa's someone would have gotten hurt....

Somethig likes this makes you realize how short life can really be..... ANy day anything can happen..... It makes you appreciate that the Lord decided that today was not your time...makes you appreciate life more and helps you not to stress over the little things...Just be grateful that you still have your loved ones aroud and you have more one day with them and yourselves!!

I finally got enough courage to leave the building and come home about 2:30am, I was waiting for this Police toi show up this way we could have walked out with them ...But I would have been waiting till 10.00am ...UNBELIEVABLE!!! They didnt even do anything once there. I mean what could they do..its not like the moron who did it was still going to be standing there(the idiot was probably so high he passed out) They couldnt take the bullet out of the couch because they said they would have to ruin the whole thing.... these couches were brannd new and my mother did not want them to ruin it....SOOO she will forever have a bullet in there  to remind her of the yr 2007 when we were all so very lucky!

I wish I had enough money so that I could take my mom out of there and get her a house...... I pray that everything goes well with Ben's promotion and our finaces that by next year maybe we can afford to put a down payment on a 2 family house in a decent area so that I can bring her and my sisters with me. I know one day I am going to make this dream my reality.....

Well I pray all of you are safe....and realize how important family is......

Take Care and Goodnight ALLL.....