Cleaning inside and out.......

Well today I am literally exhausted..... I woke up this morning sooo tired. I went to bed late last night because I could not find a way off this computer. Anyway so this morning I wake the kids up and start getting them ready for school. My kiddies must have made an agreement that they would get on my nerves this morning. They were playing around and taking their sweet times getting ready. My middle son has an issue with misplacing his stuff. No matter how many times I tell him to put his winter gear away as soon as he comes home from school , he never does. Every morning we wake up to the same thing. Him looking for his gloves and me yelling at him about why he doesnt listen. I swear(no lie) he has lost 3 pairs of gloves so far. Anyway this morning we get up and yes you guessed it. He can not find his gloves. Ok I have no patience today. I told him the last time that if he were to lose his gloves that there would be no more..... Sure enough he walks out the door without his gloves... I go into his room and what do you know....HIS GLOVES are sitting right on top of the dresser.....GEEEEEEEEZ these kids!! So of course being the wuss that I am when it comes to them I run outside and give him his gloves... He was all teary eyed cause he knew I was upset. AWWWWW...broke my heart but hey he has to learn to be responsible. Anyway I come inside and I am totally disgusted by the way my house looks. Everything is sooo disorganized! You would think I do nothing but sit on my ass all day. NOT TRUE AT ALL(contrary to what Ben thinks). I clean everyday..I just dont do deep cleaning everyday. WELLL today was that day. I started off with organizing their drawers. I swear I have sooo many clothing to give away but no one to give them too. Good stuff too, some barely even used. I need to find someone with a car sothat I can take this stuff to SALVATION ARMY. After that I hit my closets.. I only have 2 small closets but dammmm they were messy. SO I threw out everything that they have not used or played with in mths. I threw away things that I put away for later use..BUT there is no later use. I am such a pack rat!! I hate to get rid of stuff. I feel so bad even if I am throwing away a sock!! LOL ITS TRUE. It took me about 3 hrs to finish those closets. While cleaning them out I found my kiddies babies albums(they each have their own) I sat there and looked at every pic and smiled to myself remembering my kiddies as babies.(they were sooooo adorable) Then I found letters that my father had written me from prison. He was locked since I can remember. He got locked up for robbing a bank(he got away..for  few days... but I never seen a penny of it). He would write about how much he loved me and how when he came out he was going to be the father I never had and the grandfather that my 2 boys always asked about. Well he finally came out when I was about 2 mths pregnant with my daughter. I seen him about 4 times...He got mixed up with some broad and got back into the drug scene. A week before I was to give birth to my daughter , I get a phone call at 6 in the morning letting me know that my father was in the hospital. My aunt told me that I needed to get there as soon as possible because she thought my father wouldnt make it. He lasted about 2 days on life support. He finally passed away from a herion overdose. SO much for coming out to be the father I never had. It was like a tease for me. I got a little taste of what it was like to have a dad and then poof he was gone again! I told my boys that grandpa died in a car accident. Till this day they still ask when grandpa is going to come play with them. My heart hurt to read those letters. If only he would have stayed locked up. I least I could have written to him. Now all I have sparse memories and yearning deep inside for someone to call daddy. I am so glad that my daughter has her father. I know he will never abandon her. SHe is the light of his life. Looking at them together makes up for me not having my daddy. I can experience all that I missed out on thru her. WHOA I lost track there....... SO after the closets I decided to reaarrange their rooms.... What a BIAATTCH it is to move furniture when there is rug on the floor. I struggled and pushed with my legs but finally I got it done alllllllllllllll alone! YEA BABY POINT FOR ME....  I did the boys room... Looks really cute*changed sheets and then I went into Katies room and moved her room around * and changed sheets and curtains. OMG my body is killing me from all the pulling and pushing. BUT I am proud to show Ben when he came home that I did it by myself. AND DAMMM it looks good if I do say so myself. I finished off my room.... all I had to do was sweep it and make my bed..thank goodness! .... I finished everything with about an hr to spare before it was time to pick up the kids. I was cleaning from 8:30am till 4:45 pm. WOW what a long day... I was supposed to cook today.. I was going to make Penne with sausage and peppers....but I was too damm tired for anything that involved work HEHEHE..... I put a Kid Cuisine in the oven for each kid and called it a wrap. When they seen their rooms they were really happy. Especially my daughter because I took out a giant tote full of books from the closet. She was dying for me to do this. SO I put the tote in her room and she was ready until it was time for bed. THAT GIRL LOVES TO READ. She gets it from me lol.... Finally Ben came home from work with some fried dumplings for me..... Now he is waiting for me to come to bed..He keeps on texting me telling me to turn off the puter. What a pain in the ass     OHHHH before I go I want to make a shout out. My sis in law who is also Stephanie started her own journal. Pass through and read..she is open to comments. She is a bum because I told her that I had a journal and she actually searched for me till she found me.( I SAID NO FAMILY ACCESS) LOL that meant you too STEPH.... OHH wellso now she started her own so drop by and say hi. Her link is on my sidebar..ALL IN THE FAMILY. Well that is it for today.... I apologize for another long entry...... LOL once I get into the flow I just keep going and going and going in no particular order :) Have a goodnight and take care all!