A new day and maybe a start to a new me??

                      

 

Well today is a new day and I feel a little better than I did yesterday. I am still thinking about a lot of things. I am no closer to a solution to my troubles than I was yesterday. Did I get anything productive done today?? Well no not really... I have say my ass on this computer contemplating what I am going to do. 

 

My mother in law finally made an appearance. She of course had a bunch of excuses about how she has been sick and that's why she hasnt come by. She handed me a 20.00 bill and told me to go buy pizza and soda for the kids. Like this makes things better?? I told her"Look they dont want your money, they want to spend time with you? She looked like I had slapped her across the face. I guess she thought that I would be happy just to take the money. Umm well noo. They dont need money. What they need is a stable grandmother. So she said "I will take them to my house but I am sick, Do you want them to get sick? What kind of question is that? Do I want my kids to get sick...Hell No..So I told her Listen dont worry about it, They'll get over it. I wanted her out of my face as soon as possible. My daughter took the money lol...I guess she figured I rather have something than nothing..Smart Kid.:)

 

I am bored as hell. We were going to go to my sis in law's house. It turned out that she was having company(her sister and her 2 kids and her cousin). Ben and I decided not to go. There would just be too many kids and noise. And besides my sis in law has a small apartment like me and it wouldn't be too comfortable. So we'll go another day. Sucks cause I was dressed already lol.... Of course if I am dressed I want to go somewhere but Brn didn't feel like it and besides there isnt any money. So here I am making another meaningless entry.

 

I heard some disturbing news about my downstairs neighbor. What I was told is that on Saturday her 4 yr old daughter started vomiting non stop. She decided to take her to the hospital. While at the hospital she decided to tell the doctors that for the past couple of days her daughter has been having some vaginal discharge. She is a concerned parent why should she be afraid to tell the doctor anything? Anyway the nurses and doctors decide to get Children's Services involved. They started giving the baby medication to treat sexually transmitted diseases.... BEFORE determining whether or not she was sexually molested. What kind of hospital is this???? They concluded that the child had in fact not be sexually molested..WTF.... They said that it was some sort of inflammation in the vagina most likely due to an infection. Ok I dont know how a 4 yr old gets a vaginal infection, (maybe they were not bathing her frequently) But the good news was that she was not touched by a man. Still and all the hospital and Children's Services do not want to let her leave the hospital. The little girl was admitted and the mother wanted to come home and shower and stuff. They told her is she were to leave the hospital she would not get her daughter back.... I dont know but this whole story is a little funny. Last I heard an investigator came and told them to release the girl and her mother. I have not heard them downstairs so I dont know if they are home yet. Whole thing Way Weird!!

 

I think in order for me to start feeling better, I have to do something with myself. I need to get back to work and school. I need to lose these extra 60 pds and I need to get out of this house more often. I need some hang out time with girlfriends without children or drama. I need to release this tension that I have built up. These things are not that hard to accomplish so I need to get my ass working on it.

 

My mother called me today. Her attitude has disappeared and she was her self again. I hate when she gets in her little moods. I guess it is menopause. Thara why I try not to pay her too much mind but it irks the shit out of me when she says things that are not true.

I have a baby shower that I am invited to on Saturday. It's for my neighbor upstairs daughter. I dont know what to get for this chick. First of all I dont really know the daughter. Secondly I dont have any money to spend. I have to go because my friends has been telling me about this for awhile. I dont know what I am  going to do. Hopefully I can find something cute and cheap. I think my friend was trying to give me a hint about the spending limit. She was telling how a mutual friend of ours was going to spend about 100.00. She was going to get a bathtub and fill it all up with stuff for the baby. Well I am happy for her, but there is no WAY that I am going to spend that much. The most I will spend if I have it is 30.00. I dont like being invited to parties for this reason.

 

Well this is it for now.... may do another entry later...

I want to thank ,all of you...Deb, Pam , Marla and Steph, for all the sweet comments you girlies have been leaving me. I really appreciate it...