I got this from I'm bored arent you... Girly Survey

                                 

 

 

What color is your bra?
tan..last time I checked

Hair, up or down?
Right now??? UP

Do you straighten your hair?
I did the other day at the salon, think I will do it once a week now CUZ I like it LOL

Do you worry about the size of your boobs?
No not at all I am fine with the size they are now though I wish I could have them perky like they were before the kiddie era LOL

Whats your favorite girly magazine?
Not really a fan of girly magazines, they're too damned expensive for this chick LOL

What is your Favorite mascara?
Which ever one is cheap and affordable

Small or large bag?
Small, even though I've always wanted a large one, but I havent found the right one

In your bag, what are your must haves?
My wallet, and umm my lip gloss, my keys, and ummm maybe some candy

Secret fetish?
I dont know ..HONEST !!! LOL

Jeans or skirts?
Jeans for the simple fact that I own no skirts..what a shame right??

Do you wear clothes/shoes/jewelry that's uncomfortable?
Nope if its not comfy why wear it??

Did you ever spend all day/night getting pretty for a guy?
Not all day LOL or all night for that matter but I did spend like 3-4 hrs getting ready..

What's your favorite color?
Burgundy, Yellow and Lavender

Do you consider yourself girly?
most of the time

Heels or Flats?
Def flats or sneakers

Did you ever cry during a romantic movie?
Of course ..it doesnt even have to be romanttic either LOL I am a wuss I cry for anything

Would you leave the house without makeup on? Yes I have .... I dont have time to worry about makeup and all that stuff... though I willl put on some lipgloss

Do you consider yourself to be unladylike?
Yes I fart and Belch like a man LOL Hey it sais answer honestly

Do you think lipgloss is the best?
YESSSS!!! A necessity!!

Do you freak out if you miss your favorite show?
Sometimes but not for too long because they tend to give repeats

How long does it take you to get ready in the morning?
1/2 hour if I am going nowhere special

Accessories make the outfit: true or false:
I dont know I never accesorize(SP)

Do you often wish there was something about you you could change? my height my hair and my weight, ooo wait also my complexion LOL I wish I had a nice tan

Gold or silver?
Either one is fine with me

Do you dress up much for holidays?
No But if I had the money to spend for dressy clothes I would dress up..

Do you like to wear dresses?
Yes but I dont own any

Do you write a lot of mushy love poems?
When I was younger I did but ever since I had kids my talent have faded away lol

On a scale of 1-10 how much do guys confuse you?
I would have to SAY 10

In the past 24 hours have you hung out with a guy?
Yea Ben and my 2 boys

Just a survey too lazy for a real entry;)

1. How old will you be in five years?

Hmmm in 5 yrs I will be.... Ummm 34 yrs old..Damm I had to think about that one LOL

2. Do you think you will be married then?

Well I better be or else I will officially be single LOL

3. What do you look forward to most in the next six weeks?
Ummm Hopefully getting our Tax Refund already!! And umm maybe some warm Spring weather!!

4. Who was the last person you called?
Umm I think it was Ben or was it that he called me ...hmm dont really remember..

5. Who was the last person to call you?
Same answer as number 4....

6. Do you prefer to call or text?
Either one is fine as long as he is doing at least one LOL

7. Do you have any pets?
1 fish and Ummm do 3 brats and 1 pain in the fiancee count???

8. What were you doing at 12am last night?
At that time I was watching a movie..Blood Diamond..Was really GOOD.. Leo is a great! actor!

9. Are your parents married/separated/divorced?
Dad is deceased and Mom is single

10. When is the last time you saw your mom?
Last time I seen my mom was last weekend if Im not mistaken

have you lived in?
What does this mean????

13. How many cities/towns have you lived in?
1

15. Are you a social person?
Not really , I am very shy and sometimes I like to be left alone.....BUT I am a nice lady LOL

16. What was the last thing you ate?
Cheetos

17. What is your favorite ice cream?
ANY Ice Cream is my favorite LOL

18. What is your favorite dessert?
Cake,Cookies,Ice Cream whatever is sweet ....

20. What kind of jam do you like on your PB & J sandwich?
grape

21. Do you like coffee?
No Not really

22. How many glasses of water a day do you drink on average?
Maybe 3

23. What do you drink in the morning?
Umm never really thought of it maybe water

24. Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone?
depends on my mood....lol ;]

25. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed.
I sleep on the right and Ben sleeps on the left

26. Do you know how to play poker?
Only on Pogo

27. Do you like to cuddle?
Sometimes. when its just cuddling and not because he wants more LOL

28. Have you ever been to Canada?
no

29. Do you eat out or at home more often?
At home

30. Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you?
NOpe

31. Are sweatpants in style with you?
Of Course I love them

32. Do you speak any other languages?
Spanish

33. Have you ever gotten stitches?
Yes when I was 4 yrs old

34. Have you ever rode in an ambulance?
Yep many times since I have become a mama

35. Do you prefer an ocean or a pool?
NO Ocean for me... I scared of deep water

36. Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seat?
Window if its the bus but if its the plane def the aisle because I am scared of heights

37. Do you know how to operate a manual transmission?
Huh?  What is that?  I know it has to do with cars though....

38. What is your favorite thing to spend money on?
Anything that you can waste money on LOL

39. Do you wear any jewelry 24/7?
Yes... I wear my earrings, a neckalce and my engagement ring ...

40. What is your favorite TV show?
Grey's Anatomy, Lost, 24 , Real World, Road Rules, All my Children, One life to live..

41. Can you roll your tongue?
No

42. Who is the funniest person you know?
Ummm I dont know LOL..Maybe the person who thought of this question...

43. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
No...Not enough room for me, Ben and a stuffed animal LOL

45. Do you still have clothes from when you were little?
Nope I wish I did though

46. What color are your bedroom walls?
Off- White

47. Do you turn off the water while you brush your teeth?
No I find that digusting!!!!

48. Do you sleep with your closet doors opened or closed?
I have  no closets I wish I did though LOL

49. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of killer bees?
Neither... WOW Both would be terrible.. who has a diffrent answer to this??

50. Do you flirt a lot?
Yes I do, with my man

51. What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
Dont eat chicken nuggets too often but when I do I prefer Honey Mustard

52. What is your favorite food?
Italian

53. Can you change the oil on a car?
Hell to the NOO LOL

54. Have you ever gotten a speeding ticket?
nope I dont even know how to drive...

56. Do you sing in the car or the shower?
Shower!

57. Do you love your siblings?
of course!

58. Are you happy with your current life?
Yes and No at times

59. Do you regret anything?
Yes

60. Are you addicted to anything?
Computer, shopping,

61. Do you miss High School?
Yes I have dreams that I fool them into believing I was 17 and I get the chance to attend H.S all over again! I love this dream

62. Where do you work and what do you do?
At home - wife, mama, maid, homework tutor, and now a babysitter

63. What's a hobby of yours?
Shopping, computer

64. Do you know how to shoot a gun?
I never have shot one but if I needed to I think I could

65. Did you go to college?
Yes I did 2 semesters..in Early Childhood ED

66. How many Siblings do you have?
1 bro, 2 sis

67. Do you want to have a big or small wedding?
I dont mind having a small wedding but if we had the opportunity to go big I will definitely do it.

68. Bath or a Shower?
Shower, after a bath you just dont feel clean! 

69. Do you think anyone else to will do this survey?
Probably LOL

Quick to judge but are we quick to forgive??

I know many of you are thinking I abandoned my journal, NEVER LOL... I am still here. It's just that with so many things going on I just don't have time to write the way that I want.

 

Well let me start off by saying that my mother in law and I are still not talking. She called my house the other day but I didn't pick up. Then she came knocking at my door but I didn't open. Ben told me that his mother wants to explain to me why she came out the way she did that day. Well frankly I do not want to hear what she has to say. Her excuse is that she had her period that day.. Well uhh 95% of the female population get their monthly vist from Aunt Flo but most of us do not go crazy on someone who has done absolutely nothing to you!! Ben really wants me to talk to her , He says that he feels bad. I am sorry that he has to be in the middle of all of this but basically I just want nothing to do with them anymore. I just want to stay away, this way people do not have shit to say. She should have never involved my children then maybe it would have been easier to forgive her, but she messed up big time...... I never asked her for money all I wanted was her time and not even for me but for my kiddies. Was that too much to ask.... I guess it was....

Ok this is going to be very intense... The other day I was sitting here on the computer, while Ben was watching T.V.. The 11:00 news came on and I heard him gasp. So I looked at the T.V. and I realized that I was looking at my children's school. I was like "What the hell?"???  All of a sudden my world froze and my heart started beating rapidly..... A janitor from their school was being accused of sexually molesting an 8 yr old girl!!!! WTF?? I flipped!! Allegedly this had been going on for 1 month!!! How the hell can something like this go on so long????  The little girl claimed that the janitor accosted her in the girls bathroom in the basement. Now what I didn't understand was how this little girl seemed to be at the same place at the same time.... My first reaction was instant fear.. OMG ... What if's ran through my mind, Then it turned to anger, How the hell can this go on in a school where there are supposed to responsible adults caring for our children. How could the freaking Board of Education hire a rapist. They said that his background check was clean. He supposedly had been working in the school for 20 years!! I couldn't sleep the entire night... I wanted my kids out of that school ASAP!! Ben was vividly upset!! I've never seen him like this..... I didn't send my kids to school the next day, Which coincendently happened to be Parent/ Teachers Conference.... My ass would be there as soon as possible to see what these people had to say about this.

The next morning my children woke up and I let them see the news. They were dumbfounded! They couldn't believe it! They said that cant be Mr. Francis. He is soo nice. I said "What the hell do you mean?" You talked to him?? They said Yes ! He would talk to us and he was always so nice to all the kids. You guys do not know how I felt... all the emotions going through me. I didn't want to give them the first degree but I had to know if anything happpened to them. I asked a milllion and one questions to which they responded that nothing bad happened, that this man was a fine guy. I explained to them that they were not going to school today until I found out what was going on.

 I went to the school and I met with all 3 of their teachers. By the way the school was surrounded with police and news reporters. A lot of parents were saying how they found it hard to believe because he was always respectful. Then other parents were angry that something like this could happen in a school where the kids were supposed to be safe. Basically the jury had already decided that the man was guilty.His bail was set at 150,000.

All 3 of my children's teachers were adamant that the man did not do it! They said that the little girl had accused someone else prior to this incident. I just said I pray for all of us that it is not true. I told them that if it turned out that this was actually did happen, my children would be immediately transferred!

The next day on the news the story had changed.... They said that they now believed the man was innocent. They said that the little girl and her parent's story kept on having inconsistencies.  They said that they had let him go free without bail... What the hell was going on??? How could an 8 yr old make up a story like this?? Who are we to believe??..... Security and teachers posted up signs all over the school that the charges were dropped and that the children were safe....

Ok so now it is today..... WE find out that the man is no longer considered a suspect, the little girl had in fact been violated but they now believed that it was her Stepfather all along. They say that the Mother told her to say it was someone else so that the Stepfather wouldn't get in trouble.. What a FUCKING MOTHER!! How could she??? SHe should rot in prison!!

They have destroyed the life of an innocent man, who had a wife and daughter of his own. He us a church going man, who his neighbors say had not a bad bone in his body. A man who had to spend 2 days in Rikers Island being harrassed by Police and who knows maybe even by prisoners. His life will never be the same. People will always look at him as the man who was accused of molesting an 8 yr old little girl.

I pray that this little girl gets the help she needs. I pray that they take her away from her mother and put her in a safe place.

My heart is 10 tiimes lighter. My children have now returned school. They have returned to school with scars from believing that a friend of theirs was  a bad man. They now know what the word RAPE is.... I explained to them that they are too never never go to the bathrooms alone. They are never to roam the hallways or stairwells alone! I let them know that if anybody did something to them in anyway that made them feel uncomfortable, they were to immediately tell the closest adult and have them call me and their Dad. I told them no one should touch or kiss them in anyway. I hate that my children have to be put in such a terrible postition where they feel they have to look over their shoulders. I want them to feel safe... I guess we dont live in a world like that anymore. I am just happy that this is all over.

 

I have finally started babysitting.... Let me tell you , it hasn't been easy at all. First of all the child does nothing but cry the entire time. I had a feeling that he would cry but I was not expecting him to cry like this. Usually children tend to cry the first 2 days of staying with you. They will cry the most an hour , but this little boy no lie did not stop the whole time he was with me. Four days have now passed since he started coming and each day it is the same. I try everything. I comfort him, rock him, sing to him, play with him, talk to him, everything you can think of. He doesn't want to hear any of it. All he does is point at the door and scream his head off. Lucky thing I am very patient. It's that I feel so bad for him. It's not good that he is crying like this. His voice will go hoarse from all the screaming. The good thing is though that he will eat. If it weren't for that I would be very worried. His parents say that it is because he has never stood with anyone beside them and his grandmother. I am extremely tired right now LOL..... I do not want any more babies:))) The only bad thing about the whole thing is that they will tell me to expect him at 7 in the morning, So I will wake up at about 6:30 am to get ready. Each and every day they have not brought him until 11:00 Am.. Which means that I have  woken up extra early for nothing... Not only that they are supposed to pick him up at 3:00 pm but so far the father has gotten here by 4:30. I am trying to be patient but by next week if he continues to come late I will have to tell them that I am going to charge extra. By the way they pay me 100.00 a week. Is that good? I told them that amount because I felt bad about charging them more. A lot of people have told me that I am charging too little .What do you guys think??

 

I also have had a falling out with my neighbor upstairs because she feels that she can talk to me anyway she pleases because she is a lot older than I am. She is in her late 40's I believe. She tends to be very demanding. At first I used to let her slide. Finally the shit hit the fan the other day. I finally put her in her place and I dont think she liked it one bit. BUT I will go into details in another entry because Ben wants to watch a movie. I just bought the movie Blood Diamond with Leonardo DiCaprio. It is supposed to be very good. So let me go spend time with my man LOL.....

If you think this was it YOU are wrong.... I have only begun telling you.... I have days worth of entries to catch up on LOL... SOOOO Stay tuned there will be more of my daily happenings...

Goodnight AND Hugs to alll!

 

Check this girl out LOL....

 

I know I haven't written an entry in a long ass time. I hope you guys still love and remember me though LOL....

I have a lot og updating to do and a lot of things going on to talk about! It is going to be very juicy, so stay tuned :)

I just wanted to share my new look with all my Jland friends.

I finally went and got my hair done at the salon. I dyed it and added highlights and then got it cut into layers. My hair waas so long before , AWWW I miss my hair but I love the new color!!!

Before anyone asks, NOOO I am not pregnant just fat! LOL....

I will be back for sure tomorrow with a proper entry. I am not babysitting tomorrow so I will have a lot of time on my hands. Hope everyone is doing well....

Goodnight Friends.... Hugs to alll...

A whole bunch of Damm Drama going around!

 

 

Before I go on with my entry I just wanted to send out my regards to Sugar and Jeanette who are both growing through a hard time with a diagnosis they received. They are both in my thoughts and prayers. I wish them a speedy recovery. I lighted a candle along with many others , I pray the Lord hears our prayers!

 

Now I can start my entry for today. I don't even know where to begin. Shit has finally hit the fan. I am though with Ben's mom.

Let me explain a little why. It had been very nice out here in New York last week. Temperatures were in the mid 60's. Gorgeous. So Wednesday after school Ben and I took the kiddies to the park for a little while. Everything was going great until he decided to call his mother to say hi.

At first the conversation was going well , but then it took a 380 degree turn. I overhear him telling her "Wait let me talk!" I guess she didn't allow how to get a word in because eventually he said"You know what I will call you when you are not upset". I was wondering what the hell was going on!

 

So after he hanged up the phone I asked him what happened. He didn't want to say anything. He said" I'll talk to you later". Now maybe I should have left it alone and give him time to think but I knew that whatever had just happened had something to do with me. I knew this because had it been about someone else he would have not been so upset. I knew it couldn't have anything to do with him because he is never home. So knowing for a fact that it was about me, I wanted to know right then and there what was her problem.

Eventually him and Iget into an argument because he wouldn't say anything. This is not the first time he closes up. Whenever it has anything to do with his family he tends to keep me out of it. This gets me pissed off because we are in a relationship and we should be able to talk about anything with each other. I mean we have been together for going on 11 yrs and up to this day it I have a hard time getting him to talk about his family. SO I exploded . I was fed up! I was tired of having to pry information out of him when he should confide in me willingly. What the hell he doesn't trust me. SO I told him "Why the hell are we still together if it was going to be like this. I told him that if he wouldn't tell me what was going on I would just have to call his mother and find out from her.

He didn't care. So that is exactly what I did.

As soon as she picked up and I said Hello, she started ranting and raving how she didn't want to talk to me right now. I asked her what was the problem?? She starts to talk shit about how ever since she has moved in here that she has had nothing but problems. I tell her that her problems between her and the landlady have nothing to do with Ben and I. She starts flipping out how she doesn't want to say anything to offend me. SO I ask her what it is that she wants to say that she feels  I would get offended from. All of a sudden out of nowhere she starts to talk some bullshit about how she is not rich and that she doesn't have to buy my kids anything. That she doesn't have money to be buying them stuff and that she doesn't have to buy them anything if she doesn't feel like it! Now this pissed me the fuck off! Because when the hell have I ever said that she had to buy my kids anything??? If anything I am the one who told her that my kids dont want her money, they want her time. So instead of me going off on her like I wanted to I just hung up the phone. Then I flip out on Ben, because I told him that he should have told me instead of me having to go to her. I also told him that his dammmm mother has problems ever since she moved here because she doesn't know how to pay her damm rent! What the hell does that have to do with me??? I also told him that if she doesn't like the way the landlord is treating her then to fucking move, because the landlord has every right to be pissed off at someone who hasnt paid their full rent in over 1 yr! I said " I never ever told your mother she had to buy anything for my kids! If anything she would come to my house and just give them money I guess to make up for the simple fact that she has not seen these kids in over 2 mths! What a damm shame considering she lives right next door! So he got upset and said that he was leaving. I told him"Fine leave. Go with your mother" I dont care! I dont want to have to deal with you or your family!"

At this point I meant every word I said! I tried to be civil towards his family but they are just so damm ghetto that its hard.

Of course I broke down.... I was talking to myself.. I felt bad because the kids were hearing all this go on. I made a mistake and told them that they didn't need grandparents, aunts, or uncles, that they didn't need anyone as long as they had me. I know this was wrong but I hate when someone tries to throw in my face what they have given my kids. I dont ask no one for shit!

Eventually Ben came home. We didn't speak for 2 hrs. Finally I couldn't hold it in any longer and I asked him if he was ready to talk. SO we talked. Basically his mother was bitching about the fact that she didn't like when I told her that the kids didn't want her money they wanted her time. She said that she felt like if I was trying to insinuate that she was trying to buy their love... Ohh welll take it the way you want but I was just speaking the truth. She also had a problem with the fact that she feels that just because she is having an issue with the landlord that we should hate the landlord too. She said that we are a bunch of ass kissers. Well hello idiot just because you dont pay your rent and you have issues with the lady doesn't mean that we should have issues with her too. We pay our damm rent! Yea the landlady is a B&^*% sometimes and she gets on my nerves a lot of the time but that doesn't meant that I have to stop talking to her overall she doesn't like my mother in law! SHE also had a problem with the notices that I posted in both hallways of both buildings. She said that I was directing this at her ... That who the hell was I to say that she couldn't smoke. First of all that notice was directed to people in general who have an addiction to smoking marijuana! I am tired of having to live with the order of weed! Why the hell would it only be directed at her. If that was the case I would have just said something to her and not waste my time posting notices. Its not my fault that she has a pothead for a boyfriend! I know his dumb ass must have went crying to her about the notice. His dumb ass cant read english, he probably read the word SMOKE and he went whining to her about me talking about him. AS IF he were that fucking important... Just grow up and realize there are children living in both buildings who have to be exposed to this bullshit because many people in here have a freaking habit! Its not fair! She also took it personal that I was complaining about the recycling. Well obviously she wouldn't have been offended had she been doing it right..... So she must have been one of the pigs who couldn't throw their garbage out the right way. I told Ben" Just tell her ass to move if she is soo miserable here."

So now I will not speak one word to her! She could have been woman enough to come to me and talk about how she felt. She didn't have to explode on Ben and put him in the middle of the shit. After all was said and done I felt bad for him because he is never here and he had to deal with all this drama. His mother needs to grow the hell up.

She said that once she leaves the apt that she is going to call the city on the landlord and report her for renting an illegal basement, Well let her do that because as soon as she leaves I will be calling Immigration and telling them that she is harboring a illegal alien....(he is from Argentina and is here without papers) So tit for tat .. Let her try it and see who ends up losing more!

Nothing yet with our Taxes. I guess we'll get the checks when its time to file again next year LOL... This is ridiculous isnt it???

Everything else around here is going well. The kiddies are fine. They are all doing well in school. I am waiting for their State Test results to come in. I pray that my middle son did well, if not he will either have to repeat  3rd grade or go to summer school. If that is the case he will just be stuck his whole summer vacation in school.

I am still waiting on word back from the gifted school to see if my older son got excepted.

My daughter is doing great as usual no worries there.

 

My next goal is to lose about 35 pds. I dont know how to begin going about it but I know that this what I really want! I have to figure out a way to get the ball rolling. The hardest part is eating healthy because I LOVE snacks!

After all that great weather we had last week , today is terrible outside. Mother Nature has decided to hit us with one last storm. It is raining a mixture of rain, snow and Ice! UGHH now I have to go shovel.

I have been reading a lot of good journals. I dont know what would have happpened had I not started this journal. I probably would have had a nervous breakdown by now. It is definitely not for those who are not willing to put their all into it. As you can see my sis in law has stopped paying mind to hers. I dont think she was that into it as I was. I think she just wanted to read mine LOL.... She has gotten into Myspace and that is where she spends most of her time now. Thank you to all who stopped by and visited her. I'm not sure if she will return. I am definitely keeping mine going. Even if I miss a couple days, I will catch up LOL.... I have too much going on and not a lot of people around me who I could trust to talk about my troubles with. SOmetimes its better to talk to total strangers than to talk to people who you already know.

 

OHH MY I guess I will have to finish this entry later I just got a call saying that my children are having an ealry dismissal due to the weather! BYEE

Reconnecting, Stupid Irs , My dumb mind and a trip to the laundry mat!

Wow where do I begin?? I haven't been here in a few days and I so much to talk about...

Well I guess I'll begin with the good stuff. I have been hanging out with my mom and my sisters these past few days... Its actually been nice. I went with them to the city so that my mom could purchase a new computer... We had a good time talking and joking around. The other day I went to my mothers house. Usually I dont go there to much because she gets cranky and starts yelling at the kids. This time she was calm. We cooked a lasagna together and then I helped her add a slideshow on her mypace page. I enjoyed the time spent with them. What else hmmmmm...... I think I may have a lil side job babysitting. The only thing is that when it comes to how much I am going to charge I freeze up. The lady used to be my neighbor and she moved about 2 blocks away. She has a 1 yr old boy. I was out cleaning the front yard when I seen her. I said hello..how are you"? She said "You're the person I wanted to see. She said that she needed a babysitter and wanted to know if I was still babysitting. When I had first moved here, I started babysitting a lil girl. Her mother had left her with her dad. So he asked me if I could watch her while he worked. I watched her for about a yr. It didn't work out though because he would leave me with her from 9:00am to like 12:00 midnight 6 days a week . He would only pay me 150.00 a week, The little girl was so attached to me. But I got tired of working so many hours, for such little pay. It got to the point that I was neglecting my own children because the baby required so much attention. She only wanted to be with me and if I let her down she would cry all day. When I asked him for more money he was not willing to pay more. Eventually her mother came back from Florida and took the baby with her... So anyway going back to this lady at first she told me that it would only be 3 days a week. So I was like "Ok" I figured some extra money would be good. So she asked me how much I charged.I hate this part so much because I dont dare tell people what I really want.. So I told her "Listen call me tonight and we will discuss it.... Soshe called me. She then told me that upon speaking with her husband they determined that they would need someone 5 days a week. She said basically 3 days I would care for him from 7am to 3pm and then the other 2 days would be from 10am to 3pm. She asked me how much would I charge.... So I really wanted to say 180.00 but stupid me ended up saying anywhere from 75.00 to 100.00 a week... So she was like "Well you have to give me one number..She also said "Remember I bring him all that he needs(diapers, food, wipes etc) So I thought that this was her way of letting me know that she didn't want to pay alot. So I said"Well then lets settle on 85.00. It hurt me to say that lol because I know babysitters charge way more... Its just that I hate when people think that I am greedy for money. So she was like"Ok...85.00 is good. She said I would like you to start on Monday..... She also said that she would like to bring the baby by Saturday so that he could get used to me.... I said that was fine.

So we hung up... I asked Ben his thoughts on the matter and he was like that I was charging her too little bit. That I should charge her at least 150.00. He said that basically  I would be watching him for 34 hrs a week. He told me that I should call her back and tell her that I needed to charge more..... I said"How do I say that???? So I called my friend and asked her what she thought about it. She told me that I should at least charge 7.00 an hr and even that would be a lil bit. So I ended up calling the lady back ...I didn't know how I ws going to tell her... I felt so bad...but then again I have to look out for me too... So she picked up and I explained to her that since it was 5 days a week I would have to charge more... I told her that I would charge her 100.00 a weeek... Yea I know I am a sucker but I felt so bad!! She was like"Oh, so you wouldn't be able to do it for less than 100.00 huh? I was like "no I am sorry... So she said "Ok I will talk it over with my husband and see what he says. I said "Ok no problem just let me know. So she asked if she could come tomorrow after work with her husband so that they could see how the baby is going to react. I said"Ok" Sooooo I don't know.. Ben was like that she was just trying to get over with having to pay me as little as possible. He said she needed me so she will go ahead with the 100.00. Do you guys think Iwas fair??? Ughhhh I hate this... But then again she picky too. She told me that she didn't want me taking the baby outside... That she gets nervous about that. So that means whatever errands I have to do would have to be done on weekends. So it will have an impact on my life as well. Tell me what you guys think.

 

Ok on another note..Remember I was telling you guys about my friend and I reconnecting. I don't know if I had mentioned that she wanted to meet up this weekend. Well she came!! I was so nervous because I thought it would be uncomfortable because we hadnt seen each other in a looooong time.... But it wasn't ... It was just like old times. The minute she walked in the door we hugged and kissed. We wowed about each other's kids. We were amazed at how much they had grown. We just went back to old times. We talked and talked and talked LOL.. My kids were in heaven. She just has a 9 yr old daughter. My kids behaved themselves all day. My 2 boys were each in puppy love with her LOL..And my daughter finally found someone who was willing to play with barbie dolls LOL,... They had a great time.. They went outside to the front yard while I cooked... We ate, and after that we took the kids to the park. It started out as a nice day outside but when we finally got to the park it was soo cold that we were only able to stay there for 30 mins. The kiddies were so upset. So we promised them we would do it again. I couldn't  believe that it was like if 2 yrs had not passed since the last time we hung out. I guess it helps that we have so much in common. She is not materialistic at all. She doesn't show off. She is downto earth. Never once made me feel bad. We dont worry about who is buying what or paying for what....we just bought whatever it was that we wanted..... When it was time for her to leave it was sad. She promised that she would come again. Now I am planning a weekend where I can go up to her house..... It feels nice to have an old friend back.. We talk every day via Instant Message.. LOL Her husband already told her"Oh great Stephanie took your attention. We are making plans to go on vacation this summer to Florida. I cant wait!!!!

On to something else...No our Income Taz Refund still has not come in. Ben called today. He stood on the phone for 2 hours. Finally he got some answers. They told him that he owed 587.00 to State Income Tax. They said that they were taking out the Federal Income Tax to pay State...Geez I dont understand why they dont just take it out of the State Check... Anyway he was supposed to be getting about 5,000 just in Federal Taxes..Well then they told him that they had mailed out a check for 2447.00 ..He was like What??? SO he asked what happened?? Basically about 2 yrs ago he was audited... They did this because they said that he was not entitled to claim my other kids because they were not biologically his. So they deducted the earned income credit that they were going to give him for the other kids and just gave him for my daughter and him. SOO just because that happened they said every yr for 8 yrs they will withhold the check until he sends back a form once he does that they will clear the other half... GREAT! So now he has to wait for the form in the mail. They said that he should be getting it any day now... They also said that they dont say any reason why he woulsnt get it this year. So pray for us that we do get the earned income because we need it! When it rains it pours huh?? GOOD VIBES COMING MY WAY<<<<<<<<<<<.... My check is coming by mail so I know it is going to take about a mth to get here.

 

Ok... I am going to sound weird here,... Bear with me... I am curious though... Question... Do you think it is possible to FEEL blood trickling inside of you , like lets say a vein popped inside of you?? Maybe its my anxiety messing with me but since yesterday night I feel something inside ... Its like if something is trickling down.... it feels like you know when you blow softly on your skin...like that the onlything it is inside me..on the left side.... Yestersday I caught a panic attack because I swore that it was that my aorta burst..Ben was like "dont be stupid .... YOU would have been dead by now" GOD FORBID... I know it sounds stupid... But this damm anxiety makes me think stupid things.... I know that if it were that I not have been sitting here writing this but that doesnt stop me from thinking that just maybe it could be.... "SIGH" It's terrible to live like with this illness... So any answers????

 

Ohhh yea, I forgot to mention that on Friday my baby took me out on a date. We spent the whole day together. It was nice. We woke up that morning and he took the kiddies to school. He told me to be dressed when he came back. SO when he came back he told me that we were going to Ihop. I love IHOP.... It was a long ride there but we enjoyed each others company on the train. When we got there it was kind of full. I was a little surprised because it was morning you would think that most people would be at work lol.... ANyway we waited about 20 mins. O ordered Banana pancakes..They were delicious!!! I had that with some hash browns and sunnyside up eggs with 3 strips of bacon. I know I am a pig LOL... I was sooooo full!! I didnt think I would make it home. After that I asked him if we could stop at Kid City, I expected him to say No because he always does... Surprisingly he said Ok ... SO we went there,... I didnt see anything that caught my eye though. We went to Game Stop to see if we could find a family game but there were no good ones. SO we just hopped on the bus and headed back home. He offered to come with me to do the laundry. SO as soon as we got home we took out the bags, Let me tell you there were 5 big bags all together!!!!!!!! We ended up taking a taxi to a bigger laundry mat. You will NOT believe how much we spent on laundry! 60.00 dollars!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO I am not lying. I could not believe it. I wanted to slap myself in the face! How the hell could I let them pile up so much?? I swore to myself that this would never happen again. At least he wasnt bitching about the total. That didnt include the 18 dollars on the taxi going and coming! DAMMMM ME! But at least the laundry is alllll done. Now the hard part is putting them away LOL.... UGHHH I dont have enough space for all these clothes....SO HOW was your weekend LOL???

 

Ok this is going to be it for tonight.... I have to go play at pogo.com... I need to finish off my badges... YEA I told you I had NO life:)))))

Goodnight my lovely pals.... Hope you are well!

Take care all...

Thank you My J-land friends....

         

I just wanted to thank those of you who responded to my previous entry. I appreciate all of your comments and kind words. I just wanted to let you guys know that this entry was more for myself . I just wanted to put out what I was feeling at the time. I wanted to be honest with myself. It's not that I hate rich people lol. Some of them have worked very hard to get where they are at. For me it is more that I hate the fact that in today's time it seems that you are a nobody if you do not have the green stuff.  I was all over the place in that entry , I couldn't stick to just one thing because I had all these emotions locked up. I wanted to write all these thoughts down so that I could look at it later on. I have friends but there are times when I feel like I dont have any. It is hard to open up fully to someone and then have that person judge you or think different about you. This is what I was trying to convey in my entry. I am very grateful for the life that I have , but of course there are times that things get hard and you question Why??? I dont want anyone to misunderstand my entry and think that I am this hateful person lol... Thank of ya'll for being understanding as well as for listening to my rants... Hugs to all.....

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Goodness I am in such a lazy mood and I can't seem to shake out of it. I hate when I get like this because there are so many things that need to be done. I sit here ..bitch, whine and complain about how I hate the way things are but I don't get my ass up and do it. I mean Yea I clean my house, Yea I take care of the kids and make sure they are ready for school and stuff but other than that I don't want to do anything else. This kind of mood sucks...I just feel like slapping myself across the face and saying Wake the F#@*& up! I cant sit here and feel sorry for myself. My plate is not as full as it used to be. I dont work right now..... the kids are in school (not home driving me crazy) So what the hell is my excuse??? Can I admit that I am getting lazy? Or do I just blame it on the fact that I do not get enough sleep..... Well maybe its a combination of both. Either way I have to get shit done, otherwise my household is going to fall apart.

I can blame this mood on my depression, Depressed because there is never enough money, Depressed because Ben and I have fallen into a pattern. Yea we love each other, Yea we are comfortable with each other.... I love being with him, around him, and I think he feels the same way, but when we are together it seems like we just waste our time doing things that have nothing to do with one another... Like me being here on the computer or him watching sports or playing a video game. By the time I'm off the computer he is asleep and that's it tomorrow is another day. Depressed for so many reasons, but then again more Depressed because it seems like the solutions for all these reasons are so far out of reach. Does this make sense or am I just rambling??

 

This is soo stupid!! Why the hell am I so depressed when there are others in this world who have it worse than I do? I have a loving man who will go to the end of the world to make me happy(even though he will curse me out the entire way lol) I have 3 beautiful children who so far have been given all that they need plus many luxuries other children do not have. I have a roof over my head , though it may be small is in great condition with no termites or rodents. I have enough food in my refrigerator so that my children never go to bed hungry. I have a man who does not complain about me not working right now, instead he just works a lil harder to make sure that he can provide for us. I have a family who at times can be annoying but are always there when I really need a helping hand. I do not have best friends in this world but I have faith that no matter what I have the Lord. So then why the hell am I soo sad?? Why the hell do I want more?? Will I ever be satisfied?? And tell me why it is that at times I can be so envious of another person for the things they have that I do not.... Envy is a sin. I know this.... so what can I do to stop myself from sinning? ...These are rhetorical questions and I don't expect you guys to answer them for me..... I am just being honest here..maybe seeing it written down will help me change.

Speaking of change.... Do I need to change... or should I just realize that this is a part of life... These are normal feelings and emotions . I mean I am not a bad person. I do not lie( I have done so in the past and I have felt so guilty that it is not worth it) I do not cheat...steal. I treat others with respect even when I don't get respect in return. I will go out of my way to help you even if it means that by doing so will make my life harder. So should I just accept the good qualities that I do have and forget about the ones that I dont want to have.... because after all I am just human, and by being human means that I am not perfect. I have yet to meet another human being who is perfect. We have all have our faults and have done things in the past that we aren't proud of but does this make us bad people..... I dont think so.... Why is it that we put so much pressure on ourselves to be what society says we have to be. Who says that having a lot of money to afford a house and 2 cars makes us better people. Society portrays this as the perfect life, Everywhere you go, you are accepted for your financial status..... Why??? Because society says money makes us better people?? Just because you went to college and got a masters, makes you better than others who didn't?  Just because you have a job with a title makes you better than the next person who is just considered a  salesman?? Just because you were born into money and never had to work a day in your life make you better than a hardworking person?? Just because you were born with a talent to sing or act makes you better than someone who just has a talent for being a mom or dad???  Its all a crock of bullshit! Why do we look up to all these people who have money ?? Why do we strive to be them when we should just accept ourselves for being US....

 

I am so tired of people showing off because at the moment they are on top. Well if you are on top of the world then why not get your ass off that high pedestal you put yourself on and help others who aren't in your standards.In one way or another we are all working to achieve something, and whether or not that work brings you a little or a lot should not matter.

Wow I went a little further than I meant to on this topic..... I dont know if there are some of you who can understand what I am trying to say or understand why I feel this way, I have been turned away many times because I dont have expensive clothing, or because I dont live in a white(good neighborhood) neighborhood. There are so many people who knock others even for being on welfare when in fact maybe their mother, aunts or grandmother were on it.  I hate it! Let me deal with the things I have to change about myself, even though maybe its not me that has anything to change.      

I am not going to lie I myself have judged another person many times..... Do I like myself for it..?? Hell No... Is this is who I am or should I say who I am going to be?? Hell No.... I will work on myself until I am no longer  so insecure that I feel the need to judge others. How am I going to do this... I don't know yet but I will find out.

 

I look at myself in the mirror every day, Am I happy with what I see ...No.... Who am I? Who do I want to be?? I am not pretty enough, Skinny enough, I dont have that long straight hair, I dont have that pefect tan, Is it anyone else's fault that I see myself like this??? No ...It is me.... Why do I forget that to my children and my man I am the most beautiful person in the world? Why does it matter to me so much what others think about me??. Why do I not realize that what makes me ugly is my low self esteem and my lack of confidence. What is it that  makes us feel this way?. Why is it that there are some people that no matter what is wrong with them or their lives, they are so confident and believe in themselves?? Where and what is the answer/??? I applaud those have gone through so many trials and tribulations and still have the strength to wake up each morning with a bright smile and a positive attitude. It should be these people that I envy. Instead I envy the ones who are just like me, who think that money, and status means everything. Do we not realize that we are the ones who damaging our children, the next generation. What will this world come to. Values, morals, and  respect have all gone out the window. Instead we are left with greed, envy, and hatred for one another... That is a sad and scary thought!

 

I do not even know how to end this entry because there is no ending for me until I accept who I am.

But alas I have to go, now that I poured out my heart maybe I have it in me to do what it is I need to do....

Hope all my friends are doing well, A big hug to you all! :)

Goodbye and Take care of Yourselves until next time ....

 

The Negative , A positive, and then another Negative....

Goodness today was not my day at all lol...... I have the biggest headache right now. When am I ever going to learn??

I locked myself out the dammm house for the freaking third time! It all started when I went to pick up my oldest son from school early, so that we could go to the therapist. Ok that was fine..... I let my son stay in the room with the Dr alone this time to see if he would open up more without me there. I guess he did because the doctor told me that they had a little conversation which he could not share with me.. No problem. I dont care as long as my son is expressing himself. The Dr. told me that he wants to see Ben and I alone next week. I think I know what this is all about.

 

Ok we get out of there. We come home because it is not time yet to pick up the other kids. I fix up my Myspace page alittle bit and then it is time to leave again.... Now today in NY it is freeeeezing! I had to help my son bundle up since he thinks that he is invisible and that he cant get sick.... I remember grabbing my keys before doing this!

Well I go and get the other two. On the way back home I realize that I DO NOT have my keys... I look everywhere I do not have them. I ask my son if he has them because he likes to play games. NOPE he does not have them....Where the hell are the keys. For the life of me I can not remember what I did with them. This is just great! The coldest day of the freaking winter and I have to be locked out! The only other person who has the keys is Ben and he is at work till 10 pm tonight . What the hell am I going to do.

I get home and I ring my neighbor's bell, it's messed up that when she freaking rings the bell(even when she has the keys to open thee door) I open it..but today that I need them to open the door for me they wont come down! I keep on ringing that dammm bell like the building was on fire. Finally the little girl comes down.

I ask my neighbor if I could use her phone to call Ben. She lets me. I call Ben , even though I already know the answer. I tell him what happened. At first he tells me that he can not do anything. He says he is manager on duty right now. I tell him"What the F&^%$ am I supposed to do?? I can't stay out here and wait for you till 10:00pm.... The kids have not eaten or anything! Finally he says that he will meet me at the train so that he could give me the keys. He has no choice but to go back to work.

FINALLLY I am in my house again! I swear I am going to make 4 copies of these damm keys and leave one to each neighbor! AND what do you know?? The keys were on top of my bed! I must have put them down when I started helping my son..... THIS IS THE STORY OF MY LIFE!

On a brighter note..... I have reconnected with an old friend!! YAY YAY YAY. She and I had been friends for a while but when I started getting this depression and anxiety thing back I cut her off. I know it was wrong of me. At the time I thought it was what I wanted. She is very kind, good and honest person. She was there for me whenever I needed her. I dont know what was wrong with me! I guess I felt that since I couldn't be the kind of friend she was to me in return .... I just ended the friendship. She tried calling me many times..... I avoided her phone calls. I felt bad but I just couldn't talk to her. Every now and again I would think about how she was doing. I wanted to call her when I started to feel better but what would I say??? I was the wrong one. What kind of friend was I???

 

Yesterday she contacted Ben and asked him if he could give me her email address. She said she missed me and the kids and wanted to know how we were. I immediately emailed her! I apologized to her .. She said she couldn't figure out what is was that she did wrong. I told her that it wasn't her , it was me! After getting that out of the way it was likeold times again. We IMED each other back and forth and caught up on everything. We are in the process of making plans to meet up on Sunday. I am so happy that we could rekindle the friendship as of nothing had happened. I have to make it up to her.

 

On another negative note(hey I told you that's the story of my life) Ben called the lady who did our taxes. He wanted to find out why our money has not gotten here yet. Well she goes on to tell him that the IRS contacted her requesting another form. She said that since he had to pay them money, they needed this form from her. WELLLL HELLO dumb ass, we told you he owed them money. Why didn't she send this form in the first place??? AND when the hell was she planning on telling us that they needed more information! GEEZZ I swear next year we are going to H&R Block no matter how much they charge! I am tired of messing with people who do not know how to do their jobs, just so I can save a few bucks. Now she says it may take another week! So we paid 200.00 for rapid refund for shit! Let's pray that it comes next week. Everything is based on us getting that money!

So there you go...... this was how I spent my day. Hope all of your days were better! If anyone wants to check out myspace here is my link www.myspace.com/domesticgoddeses28  Don't be scared to leave comments LOL..... Ok I'll stop begging...

Goodnight all and Take Care Yourselves! :)

Hypocrites, Smokers, and Users, Now how was your day???

Well here I am ... I will admit that I have been cheating on mu journal....... this is going to be so hard to confess....But I have been messing around with my space for the past week. " Sniffle, "Sniffle" I am sooo sorry ... Can you ever forgive me. I promise I won't leave you again... LOL.....

Well what can I talk about today?? I went to the Dentist on Friday. It was packed. I waited nearly 2 hours for the Dr to see my son. Finally they called his name. They fixed his braces and finally added the rubber bands. I had a 12:00 apt on the other side for me and my daughter. I was right on time. FOR NOTHING! Only to be told that my daughter had to be seen over on the side where I just finished 2 hours for my son!! WTF... Why wasn't I told this over the phone when I made the damn appointment for her??? I could've killed 2 birds with one stone had I known this..... OHHH but wait they then tell me that my daughter couldn't even be seen that day because the Pediodontist  was not there today! So I said you know what just give me another appt for her and I for another day. Now I have to go back to the city on Tuesday. Some people just dont  know how to do their jobs!

 

I called my landlady the other day to complain about the smell of weed coming up to my apt. At first she had the "What do you want me to do attitude?" I told her Listen if it doesn't stop I am just going to call the police and then there will be problems! Her response was "Well I really dont think the police can do anything about it. They have no right to knock on someone's door just cause they are smoking pot. UMMMM where the hell does she live???? I told her "Well did you forget the marijuana is illegal, So the police have every right to arrest you if they find you in possession of Pot..... Her attitude then changed and she said"Well I want peace between the neighbors so I will talk to them...... Well its about freaking time!

So she comes today. Of course she has to pick up her rent money. She also comes with a list of things that she wants me to do. The last time I looked I was paying her she wasn't paying me for my services. She seen for herself how I have to deal with the pigs that live in the buildings.

 

Yesterday I put up notice letting all tenants know that basically I am tired of cleaning after their nasty asses. I told them that they were to be responsible for disposing their garbage the correct way. I let them know that garbage cans were provided, So they needed to use them. Not 24 hrs after I posted the notice, I go outside and see garbage bags BESIDE the garbage cans not INSIDE..WTF.. Are these people retards??? Unfuckingbelievable! So when she came today she seen this. She asks me who did it? I told"How the hell am I supposed to know." Maybe if she were to install a camera out there we would know!

 

At least the smell has improved...... Now all I smell out in my hallway is baby powder...Let's see how long this lasts. I swear if I smell Pot again I will call the police and I dont care who gets arrested! Ben tells me why am I making a big deal out of it? UMM Helllooo...... What do you mean why?? It's not fair that my children and I are exposed to this nasty shit! For that we might as well start smoking pot ourselves right?? I told him "Would you like to see you kids smoking a jooint??? He said "Dont be stupid.! I am not being stupid basically smelling it that strong is the same thing as smoking it. I told him it doesn't bother him because he grew up all around that shit. His whole family smokes Pot....They act like its the norm. Ben used to do it in his teenage yrs but when he and  got serious he stopped. I never smoked pot or cigarettes. So now when I am around either of them this smell bothers the hell out of me. I feel suffocated.

Doesn't it bother you when you find out that people who you thought were cool and that were friends...You find out that they are talking about you behind your back....

Well this is exactly what happened to me today. I guess my so called neighbor friends did not like the fact that I posted a notice about how to recycle properly. As I was coming back into my apartment, I overheard them talking about me( they had the door to their apt's open) I was soo upset. Why do people have to be so hypocritical??? At first I wasn't sure if I should just stay quiet. But as time passed it started to bother me more and more. Finally I called one of them up and let her know. She acted like she didn't say anything. She was just like "Ohhh you do a lot of work. That's a man's job. She tells me that she never heard of people having to do their own separating. I told her I dont know where she used to live before but over here that's how it is. I am not going to be anyone's slave. I am not going to do it for them. If they dont do it and a ticket is issued, then you know what they are going to have pay that ticket.... I guess you just cant know who your real friends are..Some people just have so many faces....

Goodnight and Take Care...... Don't let those bedbugs bite! :)

Same shit..Different Toilet.....

Here we are , The second of March already..... Time seems to be flying this year. We didn't have much of a winter and now Spring is almost here.

Speaking of Spring today out here in New York its beautiful. The kids and I went to the dentist today. I had to take my older son to get his braces checked. I also wanted to see the dentist because............. ahhhhhh my tooth cracked!! This sucks. I need some work done on my teeth.

We left early this morning. When we left it was pouring , just all around nasty weather. As we came out the dentist office, the sun was shining and it was shining rather brightly. It got me in a good mood.

For nothing upon arriving to my house, my good mood dissipated. Why?? Well once again..I am going to whine about my nasty ass neighbors. I am confronted with garbage all over the place! For goodness sakes there are garbage cans and these people must be blind because for some reason they want to put the bags beside the garbage can! I honesty can not stand this people. I give up. I dont care how this place looks anymore. I am going to tell my landlord that's it. She has to find some  other stupid person to deal with this mess. It' not going to be me anymore!

 

 

Ok enough about that. I still have not made up my mind about what I am going to do with my son. This is such a hard decision for me to make. I got a lot of good advice back from the comments you ladies left. Some of you think I should tell him and then some of you think that he is too young to deal with the truth. I dont know what I am going to do but I am going to put my faith in God and pray that he steer me in the right direction. I am going to have to make up my mind before July though because after that my son will have a different therapist. Lord send me a sign.

 

On another topic.. I am so sick of living with neighbors that have no respect! No this has nothing to do with the garbage. It is about one of my neighbors who feels that he can do whatever he wants because it is part of his culture. Let me explain. I live on the first floor. Below me my landlaord has rented the basement. Now this is illegal because she has not registered it with the city. Anyway my neighbor is a Rastafarian(Jamicain) guy. I dont have a problem with where he comes from. My problem is that he freaking smokes weed all hours of the day. The damnnn smell is already making me sick to my stomach! I dont smoke at all, no cigarrettes, nothing! So why should I have to pay almost 1300.00 dollars in rent to live with this damn smell. It cant be good for me or my kids. Its like all day, everyday. He says he does it because its a part of his culture. Now I dont mind him following his culture or whatever he wants to call it, but if its going to bother others then he needs to find another method! This smell is disgusting! I wake up smelling it and I go to sleep smelling it. It has gotten so bad that when I smell it I actually get nauseous(no I am not pregnant). So now I am going to have to confront him and who knows if he is going to get offended. At this point I dont care if he does though. I have spoken to my landlady about it and all she has to say is that "there is nothing she can do. He pays his rent on time and he is doing it in his apt. Well who cares if he is doing it in his apartment...the freaking smell is coming out of his apartment. SHe doesnt have to live like this. Im sure she wouldnt tolerate it! I swear if worse comes to worse I wll call the Police!

  Woo Hoooo...I can go shopping for food. I got my food stamps and just in time too. I was almost down to nothing. I am going to wait till Ben gets home. Then we will go. We still have not received our Tax Refund checks. I am kind of upset because they charged him 200.00 for rapid refund. It was supposed to get here in 3 days. Its been a week and a day and still no check. I called the lady and she says she thinks that since Ben owed the IRS , that could be why it is taking longer. She said it should get here by next week. I hope so. I want to give this damn lady 2 mth advance of rent so she could leave me the hell alone already. I am sick of her calling me every beginning of the month to remind me as if I didn't know....

 

Guess what??? I did my own Myspace page!!! Yea I know..I finally joined the rest of the world lol. It seems like everyone I talk to has one. So now I HAVE one.:))))) It looks soo nice.. Feel free to go visit and make sure you leavc me a comment lol... Here's the link...    www.myspace.com/domesticgoddesses28  I got a myspce, I got a myspace..yea yea yea lol

Well let me get out of here lol...I might be back later... Hope my friends are having a great week so far!