Reconnecting, Stupid Irs , My dumb mind and a trip to the laundry mat!

Wow where do I begin?? I haven't been here in a few days and I so much to talk about...

Well I guess I'll begin with the good stuff. I have been hanging out with my mom and my sisters these past few days... Its actually been nice. I went with them to the city so that my mom could purchase a new computer... We had a good time talking and joking around. The other day I went to my mothers house. Usually I dont go there to much because she gets cranky and starts yelling at the kids. This time she was calm. We cooked a lasagna together and then I helped her add a slideshow on her mypace page. I enjoyed the time spent with them. What else hmmmmm...... I think I may have a lil side job babysitting. The only thing is that when it comes to how much I am going to charge I freeze up. The lady used to be my neighbor and she moved about 2 blocks away. She has a 1 yr old boy. I was out cleaning the front yard when I seen her. I said hello..how are you"? She said "You're the person I wanted to see. She said that she needed a babysitter and wanted to know if I was still babysitting. When I had first moved here, I started babysitting a lil girl. Her mother had left her with her dad. So he asked me if I could watch her while he worked. I watched her for about a yr. It didn't work out though because he would leave me with her from 9:00am to like 12:00 midnight 6 days a week . He would only pay me 150.00 a week, The little girl was so attached to me. But I got tired of working so many hours, for such little pay. It got to the point that I was neglecting my own children because the baby required so much attention. She only wanted to be with me and if I let her down she would cry all day. When I asked him for more money he was not willing to pay more. Eventually her mother came back from Florida and took the baby with her... So anyway going back to this lady at first she told me that it would only be 3 days a week. So I was like "Ok" I figured some extra money would be good. So she asked me how much I charged.I hate this part so much because I dont dare tell people what I really want.. So I told her "Listen call me tonight and we will discuss it.... Soshe called me. She then told me that upon speaking with her husband they determined that they would need someone 5 days a week. She said basically 3 days I would care for him from 7am to 3pm and then the other 2 days would be from 10am to 3pm. She asked me how much would I charge.... So I really wanted to say 180.00 but stupid me ended up saying anywhere from 75.00 to 100.00 a week... So she was like "Well you have to give me one number..She also said "Remember I bring him all that he needs(diapers, food, wipes etc) So I thought that this was her way of letting me know that she didn't want to pay alot. So I said"Well then lets settle on 85.00. It hurt me to say that lol because I know babysitters charge way more... Its just that I hate when people think that I am greedy for money. So she was like"Ok...85.00 is good. She said I would like you to start on Monday..... She also said that she would like to bring the baby by Saturday so that he could get used to me.... I said that was fine.

So we hung up... I asked Ben his thoughts on the matter and he was like that I was charging her too little bit. That I should charge her at least 150.00. He said that basically  I would be watching him for 34 hrs a week. He told me that I should call her back and tell her that I needed to charge more..... I said"How do I say that???? So I called my friend and asked her what she thought about it. She told me that I should at least charge 7.00 an hr and even that would be a lil bit. So I ended up calling the lady back ...I didn't know how I ws going to tell her... I felt so bad...but then again I have to look out for me too... So she picked up and I explained to her that since it was 5 days a week I would have to charge more... I told her that I would charge her 100.00 a weeek... Yea I know I am a sucker but I felt so bad!! She was like"Oh, so you wouldn't be able to do it for less than 100.00 huh? I was like "no I am sorry... So she said "Ok I will talk it over with my husband and see what he says. I said "Ok no problem just let me know. So she asked if she could come tomorrow after work with her husband so that they could see how the baby is going to react. I said"Ok" Sooooo I don't know.. Ben was like that she was just trying to get over with having to pay me as little as possible. He said she needed me so she will go ahead with the 100.00. Do you guys think Iwas fair??? Ughhhh I hate this... But then again she picky too. She told me that she didn't want me taking the baby outside... That she gets nervous about that. So that means whatever errands I have to do would have to be done on weekends. So it will have an impact on my life as well. Tell me what you guys think.

 

Ok on another note..Remember I was telling you guys about my friend and I reconnecting. I don't know if I had mentioned that she wanted to meet up this weekend. Well she came!! I was so nervous because I thought it would be uncomfortable because we hadnt seen each other in a looooong time.... But it wasn't ... It was just like old times. The minute she walked in the door we hugged and kissed. We wowed about each other's kids. We were amazed at how much they had grown. We just went back to old times. We talked and talked and talked LOL.. My kids were in heaven. She just has a 9 yr old daughter. My kids behaved themselves all day. My 2 boys were each in puppy love with her LOL..And my daughter finally found someone who was willing to play with barbie dolls LOL,... They had a great time.. They went outside to the front yard while I cooked... We ate, and after that we took the kids to the park. It started out as a nice day outside but when we finally got to the park it was soo cold that we were only able to stay there for 30 mins. The kiddies were so upset. So we promised them we would do it again. I couldn't  believe that it was like if 2 yrs had not passed since the last time we hung out. I guess it helps that we have so much in common. She is not materialistic at all. She doesn't show off. She is downto earth. Never once made me feel bad. We dont worry about who is buying what or paying for what....we just bought whatever it was that we wanted..... When it was time for her to leave it was sad. She promised that she would come again. Now I am planning a weekend where I can go up to her house..... It feels nice to have an old friend back.. We talk every day via Instant Message.. LOL Her husband already told her"Oh great Stephanie took your attention. We are making plans to go on vacation this summer to Florida. I cant wait!!!!

On to something else...No our Income Taz Refund still has not come in. Ben called today. He stood on the phone for 2 hours. Finally he got some answers. They told him that he owed 587.00 to State Income Tax. They said that they were taking out the Federal Income Tax to pay State...Geez I dont understand why they dont just take it out of the State Check... Anyway he was supposed to be getting about 5,000 just in Federal Taxes..Well then they told him that they had mailed out a check for 2447.00 ..He was like What??? SO he asked what happened?? Basically about 2 yrs ago he was audited... They did this because they said that he was not entitled to claim my other kids because they were not biologically his. So they deducted the earned income credit that they were going to give him for the other kids and just gave him for my daughter and him. SOO just because that happened they said every yr for 8 yrs they will withhold the check until he sends back a form once he does that they will clear the other half... GREAT! So now he has to wait for the form in the mail. They said that he should be getting it any day now... They also said that they dont say any reason why he woulsnt get it this year. So pray for us that we do get the earned income because we need it! When it rains it pours huh?? GOOD VIBES COMING MY WAY<<<<<<<<<<<.... My check is coming by mail so I know it is going to take about a mth to get here.

 

Ok... I am going to sound weird here,... Bear with me... I am curious though... Question... Do you think it is possible to FEEL blood trickling inside of you , like lets say a vein popped inside of you?? Maybe its my anxiety messing with me but since yesterday night I feel something inside ... Its like if something is trickling down.... it feels like you know when you blow softly on your skin...like that the onlything it is inside me..on the left side.... Yestersday I caught a panic attack because I swore that it was that my aorta burst..Ben was like "dont be stupid .... YOU would have been dead by now" GOD FORBID... I know it sounds stupid... But this damm anxiety makes me think stupid things.... I know that if it were that I not have been sitting here writing this but that doesnt stop me from thinking that just maybe it could be.... "SIGH" It's terrible to live like with this illness... So any answers????

 

Ohhh yea, I forgot to mention that on Friday my baby took me out on a date. We spent the whole day together. It was nice. We woke up that morning and he took the kiddies to school. He told me to be dressed when he came back. SO when he came back he told me that we were going to Ihop. I love IHOP.... It was a long ride there but we enjoyed each others company on the train. When we got there it was kind of full. I was a little surprised because it was morning you would think that most people would be at work lol.... ANyway we waited about 20 mins. O ordered Banana pancakes..They were delicious!!! I had that with some hash browns and sunnyside up eggs with 3 strips of bacon. I know I am a pig LOL... I was sooooo full!! I didnt think I would make it home. After that I asked him if we could stop at Kid City, I expected him to say No because he always does... Surprisingly he said Ok ... SO we went there,... I didnt see anything that caught my eye though. We went to Game Stop to see if we could find a family game but there were no good ones. SO we just hopped on the bus and headed back home. He offered to come with me to do the laundry. SO as soon as we got home we took out the bags, Let me tell you there were 5 big bags all together!!!!!!!! We ended up taking a taxi to a bigger laundry mat. You will NOT believe how much we spent on laundry! 60.00 dollars!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NO I am not lying. I could not believe it. I wanted to slap myself in the face! How the hell could I let them pile up so much?? I swore to myself that this would never happen again. At least he wasnt bitching about the total. That didnt include the 18 dollars on the taxi going and coming! DAMMMM ME! But at least the laundry is alllll done. Now the hard part is putting them away LOL.... UGHHH I dont have enough space for all these clothes....SO HOW was your weekend LOL???

 

Ok this is going to be it for tonight.... I have to go play at pogo.com... I need to finish off my badges... YEA I told you I had NO life:)))))

Goodnight my lovely pals.... Hope you are well!

Take care all...