A whole bunch of Damm Drama going around!

 

 

Before I go on with my entry I just wanted to send out my regards to Sugar and Jeanette who are both growing through a hard time with a diagnosis they received. They are both in my thoughts and prayers. I wish them a speedy recovery. I lighted a candle along with many others , I pray the Lord hears our prayers!

 

Now I can start my entry for today. I don't even know where to begin. Shit has finally hit the fan. I am though with Ben's mom.

Let me explain a little why. It had been very nice out here in New York last week. Temperatures were in the mid 60's. Gorgeous. So Wednesday after school Ben and I took the kiddies to the park for a little while. Everything was going great until he decided to call his mother to say hi.

At first the conversation was going well , but then it took a 380 degree turn. I overhear him telling her "Wait let me talk!" I guess she didn't allow how to get a word in because eventually he said"You know what I will call you when you are not upset". I was wondering what the hell was going on!

 

So after he hanged up the phone I asked him what happened. He didn't want to say anything. He said" I'll talk to you later". Now maybe I should have left it alone and give him time to think but I knew that whatever had just happened had something to do with me. I knew this because had it been about someone else he would have not been so upset. I knew it couldn't have anything to do with him because he is never home. So knowing for a fact that it was about me, I wanted to know right then and there what was her problem.

Eventually him and Iget into an argument because he wouldn't say anything. This is not the first time he closes up. Whenever it has anything to do with his family he tends to keep me out of it. This gets me pissed off because we are in a relationship and we should be able to talk about anything with each other. I mean we have been together for going on 11 yrs and up to this day it I have a hard time getting him to talk about his family. SO I exploded . I was fed up! I was tired of having to pry information out of him when he should confide in me willingly. What the hell he doesn't trust me. SO I told him "Why the hell are we still together if it was going to be like this. I told him that if he wouldn't tell me what was going on I would just have to call his mother and find out from her.

He didn't care. So that is exactly what I did.

As soon as she picked up and I said Hello, she started ranting and raving how she didn't want to talk to me right now. I asked her what was the problem?? She starts to talk shit about how ever since she has moved in here that she has had nothing but problems. I tell her that her problems between her and the landlady have nothing to do with Ben and I. She starts flipping out how she doesn't want to say anything to offend me. SO I ask her what it is that she wants to say that she feels  I would get offended from. All of a sudden out of nowhere she starts to talk some bullshit about how she is not rich and that she doesn't have to buy my kids anything. That she doesn't have money to be buying them stuff and that she doesn't have to buy them anything if she doesn't feel like it! Now this pissed me the fuck off! Because when the hell have I ever said that she had to buy my kids anything??? If anything I am the one who told her that my kids dont want her money, they want her time. So instead of me going off on her like I wanted to I just hung up the phone. Then I flip out on Ben, because I told him that he should have told me instead of me having to go to her. I also told him that his dammmm mother has problems ever since she moved here because she doesn't know how to pay her damm rent! What the hell does that have to do with me??? I also told him that if she doesn't like the way the landlord is treating her then to fucking move, because the landlord has every right to be pissed off at someone who hasnt paid their full rent in over 1 yr! I said " I never ever told your mother she had to buy anything for my kids! If anything she would come to my house and just give them money I guess to make up for the simple fact that she has not seen these kids in over 2 mths! What a damm shame considering she lives right next door! So he got upset and said that he was leaving. I told him"Fine leave. Go with your mother" I dont care! I dont want to have to deal with you or your family!"

At this point I meant every word I said! I tried to be civil towards his family but they are just so damm ghetto that its hard.

Of course I broke down.... I was talking to myself.. I felt bad because the kids were hearing all this go on. I made a mistake and told them that they didn't need grandparents, aunts, or uncles, that they didn't need anyone as long as they had me. I know this was wrong but I hate when someone tries to throw in my face what they have given my kids. I dont ask no one for shit!

Eventually Ben came home. We didn't speak for 2 hrs. Finally I couldn't hold it in any longer and I asked him if he was ready to talk. SO we talked. Basically his mother was bitching about the fact that she didn't like when I told her that the kids didn't want her money they wanted her time. She said that she felt like if I was trying to insinuate that she was trying to buy their love... Ohh welll take it the way you want but I was just speaking the truth. She also had a problem with the fact that she feels that just because she is having an issue with the landlord that we should hate the landlord too. She said that we are a bunch of ass kissers. Well hello idiot just because you dont pay your rent and you have issues with the lady doesn't mean that we should have issues with her too. We pay our damm rent! Yea the landlady is a B&^*% sometimes and she gets on my nerves a lot of the time but that doesn't meant that I have to stop talking to her overall she doesn't like my mother in law! SHE also had a problem with the notices that I posted in both hallways of both buildings. She said that I was directing this at her ... That who the hell was I to say that she couldn't smoke. First of all that notice was directed to people in general who have an addiction to smoking marijuana! I am tired of having to live with the order of weed! Why the hell would it only be directed at her. If that was the case I would have just said something to her and not waste my time posting notices. Its not my fault that she has a pothead for a boyfriend! I know his dumb ass must have went crying to her about the notice. His dumb ass cant read english, he probably read the word SMOKE and he went whining to her about me talking about him. AS IF he were that fucking important... Just grow up and realize there are children living in both buildings who have to be exposed to this bullshit because many people in here have a freaking habit! Its not fair! She also took it personal that I was complaining about the recycling. Well obviously she wouldn't have been offended had she been doing it right..... So she must have been one of the pigs who couldn't throw their garbage out the right way. I told Ben" Just tell her ass to move if she is soo miserable here."

So now I will not speak one word to her! She could have been woman enough to come to me and talk about how she felt. She didn't have to explode on Ben and put him in the middle of the shit. After all was said and done I felt bad for him because he is never here and he had to deal with all this drama. His mother needs to grow the hell up.

She said that once she leaves the apt that she is going to call the city on the landlord and report her for renting an illegal basement, Well let her do that because as soon as she leaves I will be calling Immigration and telling them that she is harboring a illegal alien....(he is from Argentina and is here without papers) So tit for tat .. Let her try it and see who ends up losing more!

Nothing yet with our Taxes. I guess we'll get the checks when its time to file again next year LOL... This is ridiculous isnt it???

Everything else around here is going well. The kiddies are fine. They are all doing well in school. I am waiting for their State Test results to come in. I pray that my middle son did well, if not he will either have to repeat  3rd grade or go to summer school. If that is the case he will just be stuck his whole summer vacation in school.

I am still waiting on word back from the gifted school to see if my older son got excepted.

My daughter is doing great as usual no worries there.

 

My next goal is to lose about 35 pds. I dont know how to begin going about it but I know that this what I really want! I have to figure out a way to get the ball rolling. The hardest part is eating healthy because I LOVE snacks!

After all that great weather we had last week , today is terrible outside. Mother Nature has decided to hit us with one last storm. It is raining a mixture of rain, snow and Ice! UGHH now I have to go shovel.

I have been reading a lot of good journals. I dont know what would have happpened had I not started this journal. I probably would have had a nervous breakdown by now. It is definitely not for those who are not willing to put their all into it. As you can see my sis in law has stopped paying mind to hers. I dont think she was that into it as I was. I think she just wanted to read mine LOL.... She has gotten into Myspace and that is where she spends most of her time now. Thank you to all who stopped by and visited her. I'm not sure if she will return. I am definitely keeping mine going. Even if I miss a couple days, I will catch up LOL.... I have too much going on and not a lot of people around me who I could trust to talk about my troubles with. SOmetimes its better to talk to total strangers than to talk to people who you already know.

 

OHH MY I guess I will have to finish this entry later I just got a call saying that my children are having an ealry dismissal due to the weather! BYEE