Bringing Sexy Back LOL

I'm getting somewhere now..I'm almost up there with you guys LMAO..Well Not YET..but one day.. This one came out very good I think BUT I had ALOT of trouble figuring it all out.. I had to redo like 4 times before I finally got it right...

Everything is good over here so far, My mom is over here spending the night with us. A miracle right? LOL..Well we have just been hanging out.We ordered some good Mexican food and we are watching Grey's Anatomy.Yea I got her into it too.

Tomorrow I think we are going to go look around for gifts for my nieces first birthday which is next week. I have no idea what to get her. What do you give someone who has everything.

If you would like your name on this let me know. Since I had a lot of trouble with this one, I am going to ask that if anyone wants it please request 1.

Soon to come.... My very own Tag Journal... Not sure when its coming but its coming LOL..

Goodnight all and hope all my friends are doing well!

HUGS XOXOXOOXOXOXOXOXOXO

Just for FUN! I won't be offfended SERIOUSLY! LOL

Finally an entry on my LIFE!

Ok, So the 23rd of September is officially the first day of Fall, so why in the hell are we going to be in the high eighties today??. I can't stand the summer and I soo look forward to  the chilly brisk Autumn days. 

As you guys probably have noticed I have been neglecting this journal with adding any real entries. So I have finally decided it's time.

First thing is first, the Baptism is over and done with. It was on the 16th of Sept. The church was beautiful and the priest was a really down to earth non boring funny guy. Sarah looked GORGEOUS! Her dress was sooo beautiful. The Godmother did a really good job in picking out the dress. At first I felt left out and a lil bad that I wasn't the one baptizing her, But that all went away as soon as the priest started the Baptism.

Afterwards we went back to my sis in laws house. The Godmother had the food catered. It was all Hispanic food that was DELICIOUS. There was so much food! Everyone was able to eat 2nd and 3rds. Now you guys must be thinking what did Ben contribute to the Baptism. Well in the Catholic Church when you baptize someone they ask for a donation to the church. So Ben put 80.00 in the envelope. Then he bought the cake. It was soo good! It had a  Strawberry and Pineapple as well as Custard filling, with whipped cream frosting.  Today we are going to buy the baby a bracelet as a gift from us. We also gave her money in a card the day of the Baptism.  Overall it was really nice.

This was the first time that my sis in law and I had seen each other since our little fallout back in June. We had not spoken to each other since June either. I was kind of hesistant about going for this reason. When we got there though it was a lil uncomfortable at first but then it was just like old times. Now we are back on track talking once again LOL.

Last week I was sooooo upset at my kids. I now know that I have created spoiled selfish brats! Yes I know that sounds bad but its the truth. I only have myself to blame though.I wanted to give my kids all that I never had when I was growing up and in doing that I have raised children that have no appreciation for anything.

It all started on Friday. Ben wanted to take the kids out. He wanted to take them to the Disney Store because the 2 lil ones are such big fans of High School Musical. That was the plan. BUT we never got to the Disney Store because we never found it. So instead we went to Toys R Us on 42nd Street Times Square. When we got there Ben bought tickets for all of us(including my neighbor's daughter) to ride the Ferris Wheel. Just that alone came out to $24.00. Ok they had fun. It was nice. Then we went to look around. Of course everything they seen they wanted. My boys instead of looking for something different the only thing they wanted was a video game. I am sooo sick and tired of video games and I refused to buy any. Of course they were upset. Then my daughter went into the Barbie House.  Of course she wanted a Barbie Doll, but if you guys seen how MANY Barbie dolls she has you would flip out. So I didnt want to buy anymore dolls. There was nothing else she wanted .. She was understanding but NOW she wanted us to take her to Build A Bear Workshop.

Ok now its time to leave Toys R Us. For the first time EVER we left that store without buying a TOY. We walked around and we seen Ruby Tuesdays. So we decided to treat the kids to dinner. We got a table fast and our waiter came to take our order really fast. Something we are not used to in the city. Now my kids can not make up their minds. Finally we get all the orders straight. Now we just have to wait. Ok do you think my kids would behave themselves since we are in a restuarant. UHH No they all start to play around and bicker amongst each other. My older son ended up spilling Ben's drink. At this point I am annoyed and almost in tears. I sooo wished that it was just Ben and I. I am so annoyed that we always take them with us and do so many things to make them happy and this is how they repay us. My mood is not good. I was also annoyed because this Ruby Tuesday's Menu was just one page! It had about 10 choices on the menu. WTF! I just picked out anything and hoped that it would be good.

Finally the food comes... Thankfully my food is really good. I must say that my kids did eat all their food. Bill comes...Guess how much 82.00.. Wow! Its time to get out of here and I dont think we will be going over there again. I must admit though our waiter was REALLY GOOD and he was cute LOL.

So now we decide maybe we should take them to Build A Bear Workshop so my daughter can get an outfit for her Poodle. Then we figured on Sunday Ben would take the boys to Gamestop. I know I said no more video games but what the hell... SOOO we walk and walk and walk and walk. Around in circles....looking for this damn store. ALLL this time my oldest son is F*&$$$ annoying the hell out of me. He was upset because I didnt let him wear his new school sneakers. So now he decides to complain that his toe is hurting because I made him wear the old sneakers and they dont fit him(REALLY just 2 weeeks ago they were PERFECT and the onnly sneakers he would wear the entire summer) Also I know that he is upset because we are walking around loooking for a store that he knows he is not going to get anything from. So he starts crying and complaining the ENTIRE WAY! Walking sooo damn SLOW. I feel like strangling him. Of course I am the one dealing with this bullshit because Ben is way in front of us. Which also annoyed the hell out of me. UHH did you forget that we are your family too.? So I keep on telling my son to stop his shit. We are going back and forth and I know people are looking at us. OMG you dont know how BAD I just wanted to get lost. I honestly did not want to be around my kids at this time.

I couldnt believe that after everything they could act like this. Yea its just my oldest acting up right now but the other two can be just as unappreciative. That day I realized that I have done a really bad thing. I have given my children EVERYTHING they have ever asked for and now to them  its like we HAVE to always give give give.  They know no value of a dollar and how much work it takes to earn a dollar. I have shielded them from seeing the hardships of life. I have made it so that they have never had to want for anything and in doing all of this I have created SPOILED SELFISH BRATS who do not think about anyone but themselves.

Now how do I correct this?? Is it too late.??? I swore that day that from now on they will only get from us things that they need. They will only receive gifts on special occassions. When they get good grades they will only be given 10.00. If they want something that costs more they will have to save. That is another thing that my children DO NOT know how to do. On the occassions when they do get gifts they will only get one gift a piece and there will be a limit on much we can spend. I need to show them that life is not easy. Life can be very hard and if you dont appreciate what you have then you might as well have nothing.

I also swore to myself that even if I have to pay a babysitter... Ben and I will go out every other weekend ALONE. No kids. We need our time too. It is not fair that everything we live breathe and work for is revolved around these kids. Dont get me wrong I LOVE and adore my kids, but we need to think about ourselves too.

I pray that my children will open their eyes and see that what they have is because their dad bust his ass every day working 12 hr days 6 days a week to make sure they have everything they need and want. I want them to see that I still have clothes from 10 yrs ago that I still wear because every lil bit of money I get I spend on them. I just want them to grow and appreciate both big AND little things no matter what it is.

I am so disapointed in myself because I AM their parent. I WAS supposed to show them from little. I WAS the one who always said YES when Ben said NO.  I am the one who thought that by giving them everything I was being a good mother. I was the one who didnt want them to feel like I did when I was little watching my cousins and friends play with stuff that I only wished I had. I am the one who needed their drawers to stuffed with so much clothes that most of them they never used more than twice. WHY?? Because when I was little I had only one draw of clothes and my sneakers came from the Foot Doctor who at the time would give free sneakers. I did all this because I didnt want my kids to feel the pain I did when I was snubbed by popular kids  because my clothes and sneakers were cheap.  I wanted to spare them the pain of being made fun of because they didnt have a nice house... SO I just got them the best of evertthing. Little did I know that while I was thinking I was doing right by them, I was actually doing wrong... I need to fix it.

The problem is with me. I need to prove to people that I have stuff. I need to prove to them that I am not poor. I want them to see that just because we have 3 kids doesnt mean that we have nothing. Therefore I can not blame my kids... I can only blame myself.

But believe me I am going to make sure that my kids do not grow up like this anymore. It is going to be hard on them but I know at the end it is the best thing for them.

I am going to end this entry here... I will be back later on to make another entry because there are still things I need to get off my chest. Why is it that I am always looking for that one perfect friend?? I need to stop and accept the fact that I will never have that one true friend. It seems all of my friends at one point or another end up being hypocrites. I can not take it anymore. I would rather be alone.

Thanks for reading..... To be continued.........

New Heart Photo Frame

I love this picture of my babies.. If anyone would like me to do this for them just comment and then I will ask for one of your favorite pics. I seriously need to do a real update in my journal. I am so busy messing with PSP that I am neglecting this journal. I am losing track of what I wanted to use this journal for. It definitely wasnt for tags LOL. I might open up another journal, just dont think I am good enough that people would actually want to go to see my stuff.. Anyway I will do that entry soon. Please bear with me. I hope I am not boring my reader away LOL.

I hope everyone is doing well, Goodnight and Take Care my Friemds..

Luv and Hugs to all!!!

Wait WAIT, One last one LOL...

 Before I went to take a shower I couldn't resist one more LOL... I really need some new stuff, Like frames and Accents and what nots.. I'm getting tired of using the same ol'. This one is kind of simple but cute.. OK NOW Im really out of here!!  BYEEEE LOL

Lazy Sunday

 This is a snag for whomever likes it... Just something that I did in the group that I am in.. Learned how to use the Mosiac Effect.. 

Didn't do too much today.. Just went to the Supermarket and picked up a few things that were on sale. After that we came home and I cooked.. I made Baked Chicken with Yellow Rice and Peas.. MMM came out pretty good if I do say so myself LOL..

Ben has officially started his week's vacation today. We all got together and watched a family movie together. It was cute.  I don't know if any of you have seen it. It's a pretty old one. "Harry and the Hendersons". It was really funny. The kids enjoyed it.

Tomorrow they go back to school and my week officially begins. When I take them to school tomorrow, I have to stop by the office and get the signed up for After-School. They will then be in school till 6pm. It gives me time to take care of what I need to. After that I have an appt. I have to drop off some papers with my new Case Manager.

OOOO Guess what?? Grey's Anatomy Season 3 is going to come out in Boxset on TUESDAY!! I can't wait!! I have been dying for this day to come LOL... Prison Break Season 2 came out last week but I didn't have the money to get it :(  I will soon though.

UGHH I have to pay the Private company that takes my Oldest son to school tomorrow. I have to give him 170.00. That is definitely going to hurt our pockets but I guess its a hurt that we have to deal with. At least we are at ease with him getting to school safe and sound..

Well I am going to go and take a shower now... Gotta get ready for my day tomorrow....

Goodnight all... Love and Hugs xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Reflection

I'm not sure if I like this , But this is what I came up with and I just wanted to share.

I have not been online in a few days because I was disconnected. DAMMM Cablevision!! I can not stand them. I had to pay 327.00 before they reconnected me! I am now looking into "Dish" and I will keep the phone and internet with Cablevision... Bills Bills Bills! Thats all there is to look forward to.

I had to remove myself from a few groups because the amount of mail was just getting to be too much for me... I came back to find that I had over 1,000 emails. Geezz that was alot of mail to go thru. Since I am still not too familiar with where I should be saving my tubes and such, it was just too much.. I felt like I would never learn anything if all I did was sort thru mail all day long.. SUCKS! I am having some problems saving tubes and being able to access them when I click on the tubes button...

I have so many ideas , but dont know how to execute them. I have collected a lot of tubes but dont know how to use them properly... UGHH! Anyways..

Everything on the homefront is still the same. I am just going to say that there is drama brewing in the pot. I am finding myself right smack dab in the middle of it! I have 2 neighbors that just cannot stand each other. Now they are doing this whole "she said" "she said" thing. Both of them have come to me with Ohhh such and such said this about you.... Now I do not know who to believe! This is all sooo petty. We are grown woman for pete's sake... Frankly I do not want to be involved and if this continues I am going to have to end both friendships.. I hate when I think I have friends and it turns out that all I had was high expectations. Both tell me the same thing "Ohh dont tell her that I told you" So then why tell me the shit at all if you dont want me to confront the person/??

My electric is about to be cut off soon .. Why??? Well because I refuse to pay the damm bill! I have spoken with Con Ed many times. I let them know that I wanted someone to come out and see why my bill each month is over 200.00. I mean everybody that I know get normal bills like 80.00 or so dollars.. My bill is not normal. Some of my neighbors have 2 or 3 AC's which add up to my 12,00 BTU unit and they still dont get the high bill like me.

Con Ed does not want to come out. They said that it was because its summer and I am using the AC... Freaking idiots. So now my bill is up to 1,000 and I am guess I am going to have to pay the damn thing. If its not one thing its another I tell you.

Then my mother is too much sometimes.... Before she left to Florida, we went to Circuit City together. While there I bought a movie and she wanted the same one, BUT she didnt have the money to spend. She asks me if I can put it on my credit card. I did without a problem. Movie came out to 23.00 Ok.....She came back from Florida and Ben was strapped for cash so he asked her if she could lend him 20.00 to get back and forth to work. She lent it to him. Before she left she had told me that she would give me the money for the movie when she got back. I said Ok... Well she got back and I didnt want to ask her for it. I felt bad... Today while we were talking she asked me if Ben had gotten paid. I said Yes, She goes on to tell me "He owes me 20.00." I couldnt believe it.. He knows he owes her money.. he jjust got paid today!... SO I say "Well you owe me 20.00 too.. She goes No I dont. For what?? I tell her" For the movie that you wanted before you left. "What movie?" she says. I tell her "the movie that you wanted Etc Etc.. She goes "Didnt I pay for that already?" UMMM Nooo how could you pay for it when you were in Florida?" She just says "Ohhh"...

I would have never asked her for that money. I would have paid my credit card bill myself. After all its 20.00 BUT when she threw that in my face I  couldnt stay shut... So either she can call it equal or Ben will give her the money, but she is just going to have to give it back anyway... Sucks when you have family like this right?

Ughhh I am getting annoyed right now, My son keeps on repeating his famous quote "I'm BORED". "SIGH" ... No matter what he is always bored. I told him he can color, draw , read, play with the thousands of toys they have, or watch a movie. Noo all that is boring too. He wants to go out. Little does he know I would like to go out too, If only I had money to go somewhere. They dont understand that we just dished out 327. 00 so that they can have TV... and I can have the Internet... I am broke right now...

Sooo let me go see if I can find a good movie that we can all watch.... Wish me luck OK..

Hope all is well out here in J-land... Big hugs to ALL of you!!!!

 

Tweety & School

 Calling all Tweety fans, Look what I made!....... Tried a new Tut.... This time it was learning how to create a swirl.... Everything else was my idea LOL...

Its cute! If you want it let me know :)

School started today and it was GOOD.. I was a lil upset this morning though... Reason: Well I took my oldest son to school today because I figured that I could help him find out where his class and meet his teacher... Well come to find out that Parents WERE not allowed in the school yard!!! SOOO the new children my son included had to find their classes and where to line up themselves.... I was nervous because I know how my son is... He will stand around not daring to ask anyone questions and then after awhile he will just start crying.... I stood there till ALLLL the classes went inside the school just to make sure that he went with a class and wouldnt be left in the yard.

I was worried all day, BUT for nothing ..When I finally picked him up he told me that he actually asked someone to direct him and then he was fine... WOW I am sooo proud of my baby! I didnt expect that from him but I guess he is growing up and I am jusst being too overprotective.

He pretty much enjoyed his day and he likes the new school.. He showed me his schedule and I was just amazed that my baby is actually in Middle School! He finds it so cool that he doesnt have to stay in one classroom the whole eight hrs... WOW I remember when I was in Junior High! DAMMMMM I cant believe my baby is there!

My other 2 babies were fine.... They both said they had a GREAT day... I think it was more the fact that the school backyard  now has a playground... They didnt have anything but a yard before... My kiddies looked sooooo adorable this morning! I wanted to take pics so that I could show them off and my dumb azz forgot all about it until they were in school LOL... SHEESHH.. BUT I will take some tomorrow LOL...

I came home and did what I havent done in a loooooong time (NO NOT SLEEP) I cleaned my house thouroughly! It felt good to be back into cleaning mode LOL.... No sooner was I finished that I realizeed it was already time to go get the kids..Dammmm time goes fast when you dont want it to..

I went and got them, then we went to the supermarket... By the time we got home I made them take showers, do homework (YESS they got HW already) and then they ate dinner and watched an hr of TV and then it was off to bed at 9:00PM.. Let me tell you those kiddies were alsleep 5 mins later. SOmething that has not happened since summer began.

Hopefully tomorrw goes as smooth... I still have to write about the DRAMA that is going on  with my neighbors and "Supposed" friends of mine, But I will do that tomorrow.  Right now I am off to bed because I am TIRED...

Goodnight all ..

Love and Hugs to ALL

Angelic...

 I just made this one... I like it....  I learned how to make an image appear as if it were torn out of a magazine......Still learning and still following tuts... But guess what?? I filled 2 tag request LOL... Omg can't believe that I am actually learning... If you guys see anything you like feel free to request..

Tomorrow is the first day of school for my kiddies.. I am kind of nervous and excited all at the same time... I will update tomorrow on how it all went and I ALSO have to write about possibly being betrayed by someone I really considered my friend :(

Goodnight and I hope you all enjoyed your BBQ'S LOL..

Love and Hugs to alll ;)

 

I'm sorry, one last one LOL ..Couldn't resist

 Ain't he cute??? LOL... Couldn't resist sharing... I resized image and then added the border... After that I made a lil areea to add the name... OK I"M OUT OF HERE LOL

Tag I made in a group I joined

  I recently joined a group because I needed some tutorials to follow from LOL... I must say it is helping but the amount of mail that I get is crazy! I am in Beginners's LOL so this tag is not anything grand, just a cute something.

Hope everyone is doing good and are already  prepared for the new school year.. I am done and ready LOL... Now I just need to find something to do while my brats are in school.

Want to wish a Happy and SAFE Labor day Weekend!!! Enjoy!

P.S. If anyone likes the above tag so much that you cant live without LOL I can add any name on it... Let me know...

 Here I learned how to Add Text in a path... Nice huh??

Here I learned how to use layers and Masks!! I'm almost there LOL.... It's pretty COOL... Hope you guys LIKE..

I learned with this Tut how to make Tags from scratch, Cute, Notice how he is holding up my name LOL.. I'm corny right

Last one for tonight, I did a border and frame with this tag... Its kind of plain but now I know how to do it with other tags... I hope you like them all.... Can you guys please give me some feedback as to what you think, ... Have a goodnight all

Love and HUGS to all my J-land friends and to those of you who are going thru some hard times right now Stay Strong and Keep your heads up!!!