Thank you my dear friends for the comments and support ya'll gave me.. I am starting to feel like myself again. The only thing I am now feeling is a constant worry that something is going to happen to me. This is part of the anxiety I know.... I am still sad over what I did, especially that now I am finding out that some people I know are pregnant. This hurts me so much but deep inside I think I made the right decision for myself and my family.
All I want is one wish of mine to come true, thats all I need.... My wish is that this anxiety would be gone and I could live my life normal like any other person. I want to be able to wake up and not worry that today might be the day that I am going to die, or that I am sick and I am going to have to go to the hospital. I want to be free of worries and all anxieties. Will this ever come true?? I pray so.
Yesterday I started getting the wanting to make tags back... Its slowly creeping up on me. I went to the CILM and AMI websites to see if I can purchase some tubes and a license, but it just confuses me LOL... I dont know how to do it.. I dont know what is the difference in purchasing images or tubes. The ones I really want are from Susan Woolcott, I just love her work! I just need to figure out how to purchase them.
Today there is no school, so my brats are home.. Hopefully they act like lil angels today. Though I highly doubt it.
So who is getting ready for Christmas?? This year I vowed to start early so that I dont get caught doing last last minute shopping like every other yr. I love this time of yr. I love the cold and the spirit of the holidays! Hopefully this can help being me out of the funk that I am in.
I am worried about my lil sister. She is 17 yrs old and recently went to the GYN. They did the normal PAP smear. It came back abnormal. So they had her go in for additional testing where they took a piece of her cervix. Yesterday the receptionist form the DR"S office called her and told her that that something showed up and that she need more extensive testing. What got me mad was that she said she couldnt explain what she meant! She said she wasnt even supposed to tell my sister anything but that she wanted to warn her. What the fuck was the sense of telling a half ass reason?? So I called them pretending to be my mother but they said they couldnt give me any explanations over the phone.. IDIOTS! So now my we are all worried and my sister was crying because she says why did this have to happen to her.. She has to go in tomorrow. My mother is going to go in with her and demand that they tell her what the hell is going on. I understand the whole confidentiality stuff but if my sister wants my mom to know then what the hell is the big deal.
In a way this whole protection of tteenage girls is ridiculous. Do yoou know how many teenage girls were in the abortion clinic that day!! It is a shame that such a procedure can be done without a parent knowing. What if something were to happen to her??? What if there were complications? I don't know!
I just pray that everything is ok with my baby sister! She doesnt need to go through this at such a young age.
Well I guess this is it for now.
Love to all of you!
Steph
No comments:
Post a Comment