I'm sorry for neglecting you journal :)

Wow it's been a long long time since I wrote in here. I am ashamed of myslef for neglecting my journal this long. I have been busy with a group that I am co-owner to..It's called Deb & Steph's Designs. I am also trying to stay on top of my Tags Journal... Simply Gorjuss Creations.

I will update a lil on my family. Kids thank goodness are doing great. Other than being pains in my but that is. Sometimes I feel like I really want to run away but then I look at their lil faces and I know that I could never leave them.

Ben, is doing good too. He is doing very well in his job. As for our relationship its like he's fallen in love with me all over again. He is constantly giving me attention, calling me from work, sending me sweet lil text messages. On his days off he does whatever it is I want to do. He will even come home and wash dishes for me. I am happy that he shows me more love and attention but sometimes it can be a lil much. Why is it that when we get what we've wanted for so long,  we don't appreciate it as much?

I love my guy and I can't see myself without him.... I guess I have to get used to all this attention LOL.

As for me... Well I am still the same... Some days are better than others. I am trying to lose some weight but this shit is sooo hard. My GOD why did I have to gain so much??

I try to stay away from all the fatty no good foods but I cant help it, they are my favorites LOL. I am thinking about buying a portable treadmill so that I can burn some calories. If I showed you guys pictures of when I was a teen you wouldnt believe how much weight I've gained.

I am not going to get too deep in this entry.... I just want to let everyone know I have decided that I am going to go private. No, its not because I have gotten bad comments, No its not that I want attention and people begging me to stay public. The reason that I am making this desicion is because there are certain things that I want to feel free to write about in my journal but I cant. Reason being that some family members do have the link to this journal and can read anytime. Also as you all well know it is very easy for someone to google you and your journal will come up.

I tend to be a very private person when it comes to my family knowing certain things. I don't mind people on J-land reading but I dont want family in my business. They can always use this information against you.

I have been going thru some personal issues and I would like to write them down but not until I go private. If there are still people who read this journal and would like to be added as a private reader please leave me a comment. I will be making the change sometime tomorrow.

Stay tuned for more....

Until next time Ciao....

Steph

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