Part 2

So the Library closed and I had to leave lol.... I took the kids to the library because they begged me to. Can you believe my kids love going to the library. To them its a hang out spot and they get a kick out of seeing all the new books. They each borrow about 4-5 books each(except my oldest he hates the library). They came out like me, I love to read. I been looking for a new author to get into. Any ideas?

Well so I think I left off telling you all that I had to step down from Deb's Stunning Designs. I really didnt want to because I loved being a major part in running the group and we have such a great group of woman. I am still a member though, so thats good. I just didnt have time to fully commit myself the way these ladies deserved. But Deb is an awesome owner and woman and she is holding it down all on her own.

I dont work weekends so I am able to stay at home with these kids which is great. We dont have to look and worry about paying a baby sitter.

I am extremely tired and at times I get frustrated when it seems like everything is piling up in the house. I still have to come home and help with HW and start dinner as well as clean up the mess we left in the morning. OOO the joys of being a woman huh?

I have been neglecting my tag journal(simply gorjuss creations) I have been making tags just havent been posting them. I have so many unseen tags sitting on photobucket right now. I might just post one a week and offer them up for requests. We'll see.

I recently got back into contact with one of best friends from yrs ago. She found me on Myspace. I was soo happy. I had searched for her but I never found her, and wouldnt you know she was going by her nickname DUHHH! So we have been talking over the phone and it makes me miss the days when I was younger. If only we could turn back the clock and appreciate the lives we had before we decided to become adults way before we should have.

She lives in Pennsylvania and will be coming to see me early October. I cant wait. The older obstacle is that she is coming with her with significant other who is a woman. I personally do not care about the fact that she is a lesbian. It does not bother me at all. I accept her for her she is and thats that. The only thing is that my children have never been around that situation and I am not sure if it would be ok to expose them to it in their home. They do know that they are gay people in the world, and they know not to discriminate, but is it different when its right in your face? My friend asked me if she could stay with us and I of course said yes, how could I say no? Now I am thinking if that was the right thing to do. One of my other friends who is bisexual told me that its not such a good idea. I know my friend would not disrespect my children in any way. So I am torn.

While we are on the friends topic, my neighbor (who lives above me) and I no longer speak to each other. I dont know what happened, but there was a few times that we would see each other and she wouldnt say hello to me. I always had to say hello first. I was getting tired of that, I mean we are friends we can acknowlege each mutually right? Well one day I went outside and she was sitting on the step with her daughters. They both said hello to me and I said hello back. This woman kept her face turned the entire time and did not look my way once. Welll you know what I didnt say shit to her. Since that day we have not spoken. I dont know if she had a problem with me before that but as a woman she should have said something. I just think she got to big headed for her own good and got used to people kissing her ass. She is about 15 yrs older than me and she is a Jamican woman and I of course do not have anything against them, but for some reason some of them tend to think that they are better than others. She did mention to me a few times that Carribean woman tend to dislike lighter woman of their own race as well as other races. So I dont know but whatever. I guess our friendship wasnt real.

I can continue but I have a headache so I am going to go lay down. To be continued.....

HUGS,

Steph

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Wow I have been MIA for mths!....

Wow, its been so long since I even looked at this journal. I have no excuses ... just the truth I lost all motivation for writing in here. It's not like I dont have anything to write about. So much crap has been going on since the last time I wrote. I just have been so lazy to write in here.

I am sitting here in the library with nothing to do, so I decided to try this out again.

Let's see if I can give you all a quick update since the last time I wrote her.

Finally the issue with Ben's bank account was taken care of. He ended up having to give them a chunk of what was in there. Then every mth thereafter he has to send them 100 dollars. As you can probably imagine I was not too happy about that. We definitely can not afford that extra hundred dollars but what can you do.

Issues with my landlord continue to plague my life. I dont if I ever mentioned here but she finally decided to give us a 2 yr lease. I was very happy about that because she couldnt raise our rent for 2 yrs. OR SO I THOUGHT. Even before I completed a full yr with this new lease she calls me up and says that she knows she gave me a 2 yr lease but that she regrets to tell me that she has no choice but to raise me an extra 50 dollars because her oil and gas bills were extremely high. You can not imagine how pissed I was! She told me that she would do me a favor and not charge me that 50 dollars until the winter mths. So that would be Nov thru March. A favor my ass. She knows what she is doing, because in June my 2 yrs are up and she will then be charging me that 50 dollars every mth if not more!

I know I have a lease and by law she is not allowed to do that, but she is using the guilt tactic on me. She tells me ohhh you know how understanding I have been with you guys when you are a week late with the rent. So I am torn. I am not sure yet what I am going to do.

My kids are all doing well, thank goodness. They are back in school. I transferred my 2 littlest ones to the school that is right around the corner from me. It is way easier to take them to school now. They love the new school. The teachers are younger and seem to actually like their jobs. They are not so hard with the HW, whereas in the old school the teachers would not do shit all day and the stock pile on HW to make up for it. They would literally give these kids more than 20 pages of HW in ONE BOOK!. My son would take hrs to do this hw. Now he is done within a hf hr -45 mins tops.

The only thing I dont like about this school is that they have open classrooms. At first I wasnt sure what this meant so they took me on a tour and what I saw was new to me. All the classes are in one big room and are only seperated by those seperations that they use to seperate offices...(ok now how many times did I use seperate lol.) There are no doors and you can hear each teacher talking to their students. They try and keep the noise level down, but I find it hard to believe that this is easy for them to do. So far my kids say that they are not distracted and that you can barely hear the other teachers. I hope that this doesnt affect their grades. We will see.

My daughter was having a hard time at first with these 2 little girls that in my opinion must have been jealous of her. They told her that she must be rich because of the way she dresses, sits and talks. UMMMM no we are not rich, but she was tought to have class, respect and morals. So these 2 little girls started a fight with her. But they underestimated my daughter. She may act and look all prissy but when someone bothers her and hits her she can defend her self. I did get to speak with one of the parents and thankfully she was not one of those ghetto parents. She actually talked respectfully and said that she would talk to her daughter. I also said I would talk to mine. The next day these 2 girls befriended my daughter. Her being who she is put all the drama to the side and she played with them. I am so proud of my child.

We finally got to go on vacation!! We went to Fort Lauderdale. We stood there for a week.  We were going to stay at a hotel but Ben's cousin lives out there and he insisted we stay with them. This was the first time I met him and his wife. I must say they are great people. They made us feel right at home. I was worried that we wouldnt talk and it would be awkward between us but everything just felt like if we had known each other for yrs. We went to the beach. It was gorgeous! The ocean was sooo clean and clear. The sand was white! BUT HOT! LOL.. At first I wasnt going to go in the water but Ben and the kids kept on bragging about how warm the water was. It was so hot outside the water that I said what the hell. I went in and it was just beautiful and the water was in fact warm. I stood there for hrs!

We went to Universal Studios. We had a great time there. We took so many pictures! I was surprised because I was expecting to wait hrs on the lines but they were pretty quick lines. The longest line was for the new Simpson's Ride. We waited on that line for about an hr and a half. But it was worth the wait. It was a very cute ride. We also hung out in the pool at the complex they live in. I am so jealous lol. I wish I lived in a place where I could go to the pool whenever I wanted.

While out there my daughter auditioned for this modeling company. She loved it. She actually walked down the runway. This was her first time doing something like this and can you believe she made it into the finals. We were so proud of her! For her finals she had to do a photoshoot and go up on the stage and perform. She decided that she wanted to sng Miley Cyrus's Girl's night out. She said she was soo nervous. BUT she did it. Now we had to wait for the judges to decide if she would win a contract with them.

It was going to take a few weeks. Well we recently got back her photos (they are gorgeous btw) lol and GUESS WHAT! She won a new face contract with them. I just have to sign the contract and mail it back. Before I do that though I am going to look into everything and make sure everything is legit. She is soo happy and excited. She is so good with the camera. As for my boys.... well they are boys lol and they are doing boy things. You know the video games and stuff like that. I am trying to find something for them to get involvedin but it's hard because we dont have a car  and everything is a pretty good distance away.

I have had to step down from being co-owner of Debs and Steph's Designs(which is now Debs Stunning Designs). The reason being that I have had to go back to work. Things were just getting too tight and I felt that I should at least help out a little more. I am no longer gettting the rental subsidy that I used to get.... well I do but they no longer give me 700 for rent they give me 400. Our rent is 1300 right now, so Ben was having to pay 900 plus all the bills whatever we needed for us and the house. It was getting real hard for him. So I am now working. It is not much but it helps out. I work from 9 till 2. I have weekends off.. which is good for me. I dont need to spend money on a baby sitter...

to be continued library is closing....