Time to change my look before New Year's ;)

Well Christmas is over, everybody is calm and all the leftovers are gone.

Now I'm on the search for just regular tags LOL.. The ones I have are mostly for Christmas...

Nothing much going on around here...just getting settled and trying to get these bills payed...Of course the beginning of the month is a b*&^ because all the bills come all together...RENT UGHH, light , Gas, Cell phone and cable/phone/internet bill..

I have been bumming around since yesterday.... I have no energy to even pick up a broom...At least I cooked though...It was way easy now that I have the Rice cooker that my mom gave me..That thing is great..just add the rice and water and sit back and wait....you can even forget that you were even making rice lol because once it's done it automatically stops cooking and sets itself at warm...THANK God for modern gadgets!!! HEHEHE

I opened up a Fingerhut account today.... OHH OHHH this might just get me in trouble... LOL You know all I am going to be doing is ordering things.... I'll try to be a good girl though and just get things WE NEED! ;)

HMM what else can I share..Welllll its officially 1 mth since Ben and I have gotten intimate with each other...WHY you might ask...UH OHH he is cheating some might say... It's not because of lack of wanting to its because we basically have NOO privacy... For those of you who are new to my journal..Ben and my bedroom is the living/our bedroom...SOO what this means is that we don NOT have the option to just lock our children out when we need a few mommy and daddy mins.... In the beginning this was fine because our children were babies and didnt really know what was going on...and we knew they needed something cause they would cry out...BUT now they are grown up which means more midnight bathroom stops and less mommy and daddy time......For example the other night we started cuddling and right when the the good action was about to start GUESS who needs to use the bathroom >>My oldest son..Thank Goodness we werent into yet if you know what I mean...SO needless to say there was no action in my bedroom that night or any night since then for fear that we might actually get caught in the act and LORD KNOWS I wouldnt be able to look at my son again LOL......

I dont know how long the abstinence is going to continue ...Lucky for me I am fine without it but if you're married you ladies have to know that a man who has not gotten his fair share is extra grouchy...POOR BEN...... I guess now  I know why he has chosen to spend half his time at home in the shower HEHHEHEHE

I neeeeeed to move out of New York City this way we can AFFORD a 3 bedroom apt or house...Out here I dont think thats going to happen any time soon..Imagine 1325 for 2 bedrooms (which I have and pay for now) I'm scared to think how much a 3 bedroom will be.

How many of you have or wondering about your New Year's resolutions???

Well my New Year's resolutions are #1..  I need and want to lose 40 pds.   2.. I want to learn how to stop letting my anxiwty get the best of me and let go of my excessive worrying.  3. Save money.. 4. Work on being a better parent and wife than I am now. and last but not least 5. Learn how to stop letting people take advantage of me.  HMMMMM going to be really difficult but I am going to set my mind on getting these things comquered before 2008.

I pray that this year will bring us good things..Lord knows that the past 2 years have been really tough for us and it seemed that everytime we though maybe things were going to change there was another hurdle to jump over....We've had our share of never having enough money.... and things just going topsy turvey on us.....  I know that the only ones who can change our lives is ourselves...but maybe I'm just hoping that God will see that we are trying and while YES we do make mistakes we are doing the best we can and maybe he can shine that light upon us for a lil while..... I know I'm wrong because it seems that all I do is sit here and ask God to help me change things, It's because I dont have a clue where to begin changing things by myself....I dont know if it's laziness, or if its just that at times things just seem so overwhelming that I cant do anything....  I dont want a whole lot ... I am not greedy.. all I want most in this world is a house with enough space that I can finish raising my children in... I dont need tons of money... I dont need a fancy car or fancy designer clothing... I am fine with all I have now(of course there are things I see in stores that I want dont we all ) but I would be satisfied with everything I have now if only I had a a place that I knew was my own, instead of having to deal with eccentric and psychotic landlords LOL.... OHHHH well let me stop my crying..LOL  Take Care all and Goodnight.......

So let's hear it... QUESTION OF THE NIGHT IS: WHAT ARE YOUR NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS??

Beautiful isnt she?